We face problems in life. Whether it is at school or work or relationships. Sometimes we blame it onto God for all these that has happen. We human beings, tend to rely on our own strength in whatever we do. When problem comes, we still try to do whatever we can do on our own ability, forgetting God who can give us the power to overcome mountains in life.
Sometimes when we lose faith, lose hope, we tend to think that God is far far away. As for me, I always thought so. Where is God when I need Him most? But the thing is, I often neglet Him and not cry out to Him for strength when I am weak. When I complaint about how miserable my life is to my sister and start saying “God does not answer my prayers.” She replied, “Now you’re blaming God!”
Last weekend, Ps John Bevere quoted a verse.
“48 Then He saw them straining at rowing, for the wind was against them. Now about the fourth watch of the night He came to them walking on the sea, and would have passed them by. 49 And they saw Him walking on the sea, they supposed it was a ghost, and cried out; 50 for they all saw Him and were troubled. But immediately He talked with them, and said to them, “Be of good cheer! It is I; do not be afraid.”
This is part of the story on Jesus walking on the water. Jesus sent His disciples onto the boat and when evening came, His disciples had problem rowing the boat ast he wind was against them. Jesus went to them, by walking on the water. His disciples saw Him, thinking it was a ghost. They cried out as they were scared. IF they did not see Him and cried out, Jesus would have passed them by.
Just like in life, when problems come, Jesus sees it. God sees it. And when we do not cry out to Him, He would have just passed us by.
I cried out to God, with all my heart on the day after I BBM-ed my sister on all that is troubling me inside. I cried out to Him, “Where are You, O Lord…where are You? I don’t feel You anymore, I don’t know how to feel You anymore…I don’t know how to hear from You anymore..” Then I went to bed peacefully and woke up with swollen eyes. Haha. But I felt refreshed.
I still doubt that it was God.
That weekend, Ps John Bevere preached over in church on God’s Grace. And that was one of the verse that kept me thinking about God and me. He is there….but I just didn’t bother to look out for Him. Then and there, God was speaking to me through Pastor.
Though I know God is always watching over my life, God’s Word is still the best solution for answers to all my problems in life.
I left church having the joy of the Lord. God is indeed real. So real in my life that I feel so hurt that I couldn’t feel His touch. That is why Christianity is a Relationship with God…not a religion.