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Our Wedding #joshuatiffanie

Initially I wanted to write on my proposal last year and also the planning of our wedding, but I decided to just go straight to our wedding instead. #lazy So.. yeap… we are FINALLY married!

Our wedding was back in May, on the 14th. As we are not superstitious nor have any significant date, we chose the date according to our vendors’ availability. Haha. But the date is not too bad too – 140516. =D

We decided to have our wedding at Glasshouse at Seputeh as the location was the perfect one for us. An indoor garden wedding! Josh tend to sweat a lot so having an outdoor wedding in this hot and humid climate will make him and everyone else uncomfortable.As the both of us are currently based in Singapore, going back to KL to prep for our wedding can be a hassle. We decided to fork out a little bit more cash to ease our burden. I did not want to hire a wedding planner as I wanted the wedding planning to be meaningful and something I would remember. It was tough and stressful, but I’m glad everything went well! I didn’t want to be a bridezilla, so I gave the vendors their freedom to let their creativity shine! All I did was to give them my mood board and give them their space to create.Probably the only thing I was fussy about was my wedding cake, invitation card and wedding dress. Sorry! Lol.

So, since we didn’t have much time, we decided to do our preparation and pick up at Majestic Hotel. The reason we chose this hotel is because it’s beautiful and very near to Glasshouse!

Watch our wedding highlight here! Thank you Nigel and team from Nigel Sia Visual Storytelling for the awesome job done!

After watching, let’s continue here. lol.

 photo Joshua amp Tiffanies Wedding Day-1.jpg I got Aivy Yong as my makeup artist. I love how she understand my style by just telling her “simple and natural”.

 photo Joshua amp Tiffanies Wedding Day-3.jpg  photo Joshua amp Tiffanies Wedding Day-11.jpg My wedding dress was custom made by Grey by Bridal Art Gallery. I decided to buy the dress and it cost me RM3000. Made to rent is possible too! I love the bag dress provided by them as it is so convenient and neat! I can put 2 dresses inside without having to carry so many bags! And my shoes is from Aldo! I had difficulty finding that perfect shoes as I dislike blings and would love a simple design.

 photo Joshua amp Tiffanies Wedding Day-17.jpg Josh’s suit is from Zara. He didn’t want to spend so much on custom made suits.

 photo Joshua amp Tiffanies Wedding Day-18.jpg Josh’s treasures. haha. His shoes is from Pedro.

 photo Joshua amp Tiffanies Wedding Day-19.jpg  photo Joshua amp Tiffanies Wedding Day-27_1.jpg  photo Joshua amp Tiffanies Wedding Day-39.jpg My robe from Plum Pretty Sugar

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 photo Joshua amp Tiffanies Wedding Day-66.jpg  photo Joshua amp Tiffanies Wedding Day-67.jpg  photo Joshua amp Tiffanies Wedding Day-69.jpg  photo Joshua amp Tiffanies Wedding Day-70.jpg We had difficulty finding this pewter wine cup and candle stand so we borrowed from my church in Kuantan. Thank you to WMC Kuantan and Abelene for bringing it to KL!

 photo Joshua amp Tiffanies Wedding Day-72.jpg  photo Joshua amp Tiffanies Wedding Day-79.jpg  photo Joshua amp Tiffanies Wedding Day-89.jpg Buffet spread decor by Tie the Knot!

 photo Joshua amp Tiffanies Wedding Day-90.jpg Our buffet vendor was Big Onion Caterer. They are at the pricier side but their food was AWESOME especially the LAMB! Apparently the Roasted Lamb was the hit of the night, and sadly, we only ordered 2 lambs. Haha. Tak cukup for 250 guests. Lol. We decided to choose Big Onion as they provide wedding packages where it also includes basic table arrangement with the table and chairs! Just sekaligus food, table, chair, semua in.. kaotim sai! They posted some pictures of the food on their Facebook page. Go there to see!

 photo Joshua amp Tiffanies Wedding Day-82.jpg We got our wedding favours from Cure.Me.Cookies. Their cookies are so yummy!

 photo Joshua amp Tiffanies Wedding Day-93.jpg This table has some our our DIY projects and some styling by Tie the Knot. The stationaries here were from Typo and Bells & Birds! And the Giant Flower was made by my very own father! How awesome is that! Daddy used to do a lot of these craft works long time ago. I asked him to make the flower for me to wake his creativity again. Everyone loves the flowers very much!

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 photo Joshua amp Tiffanies Wedding Day-111.jpg  photo Joshua amp Tiffanies Wedding Day-118.jpg Cousin Amanda

 photo Joshua amp Tiffanies Wedding Day-123.jpg Cousins Hui Xin, Tarnia

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 photo Joshua amp Tiffanies Wedding Day-129.jpg My lovely bridesmaid Asvin who is getting married in December *woot woot!*

 photo Joshua amp Tiffanies Wedding Day-132.jpg Youngest sister, Abigail

 photo Joshua amp Tiffanies Wedding Day-134.jpg And my other younger sister, Phoebe. She composed the wedding processional song for me, which is about Josh and I. Listen to the whole song below!

 photo Joshua amp Tiffanies Wedding Day-139.jpg my happy grandmother!

 photo Joshua amp Tiffanies Wedding Day-143.jpg And here comes me and daddy <3  photo Joshua amp Tiffanies Wedding Day-149.jpg  photo Joshua amp Tiffanies Wedding Day-116.jpg  photo Joshua amp Tiffanies Wedding Day-153.jpg  photo Joshua amp Tiffanies Wedding Day-184.jpg  photo Joshua amp Tiffanies Wedding Day-204.jpg So thankful for Pastor Andrew for flying in from Singapore to officiate our wedding!

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 photo Joshua amp Tiffanies Wedding Day-376.jpg  photo Joshua amp Tiffanies Wedding Day-384.jpg  photo Joshua amp Tiffanies Wedding Day-383.jpg Amazing how our ushers managed to get our guests to clear the area and get a clean image of the new setup!

 photo Joshua amp Tiffanies Wedding Day-380.jpg Our wedding cake was from Josh’s friend and the decor was done up by my florist, Florahera and the cake topper is from KCottage Studio!  photo Joshua amp Tiffanies Wedding Day-388.jpg Flowers by daddy <3 as our videobooth! Instead of a photobooth, we opted for a videobooth!

 photo Joshua amp Tiffanies Wedding Day-389.jpg  photo Joshua amp Tiffanies Wedding Day-395.jpg Check out the video! I’m gonna self-promote my services here LOL: Advertisement: If you are looking for a videobooth at your event or wedding, drop me an email! It’s something unique and different and definitely fun!

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 photo Joshua amp Tiffanies Wedding Day-470.jpg Sistah giving her speech!

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So thankful for everybody who came and most importantly those who volunteered though we are not very close! From the bottom of our hearts, we are really thankful and blessed to have everyone to be part of our wedding.

And for those who wants to know our vendors, here’s the list of them:

Venue: Majestic Hotel, KL & Glasshouse at Seputeh
Photography: Smittenpixels Photography
Videography: Nigel Sia Visual Storytelling
Videobooth: TiffanieTan Photography
Venue Styling: Tie the Knot
Bridal, bridesmaid, flowergirl bouquet and cake decor: Florahera
Makeup Artist: Aivy Yong ; Fibiee Liew
Wedding Dress: Grey by Bridal Art Gallery
Evening Gown: ASOS
Robe: Plum Pretty Sugar
Groom’s Suit: Zara
Stationaries: Bells & Birds,
Typo Wedding Favours: Cure.Me.Cookies
Caterer: Big Onion Catering
Balloons: Oh Balloons

I hope this will help any brides to be out there! If you need any advise, feel free to drop me an email! =)

Update: Our wedding is feature on The Wedding Scoop! Go Check it out!

Our Long Distance Relationship

Josh and I have been in a relationship for nearly 11 years. We knew each other from the Youth Alive Forum, he is from KL and I am from Kuantan. We started chatting on ICQ and MSN, leading to long conversations over the phone using Ring Ring card and late night calls that irritates my sister so I had to open the window and talked outside the window then to being penpals, to pet siblings and now lovers. We meet each other at camps and whenever I go down to KL, I will sneakily go out to find him. Yes, you got it… my parents didn’t knew about our relationship but they suspected.

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Us in 2007. Lololol. I was once so fat and he was once so skinny. Now it is the opposite! I wish I have the older pictures of us. They are all back in Kuantan in my treasure box.

When I went to KL to study in 2006 for 3 years, we see each other once a week and would go dating every weekend. That’s the only time we were closer to each other. Then in 2009, the long distance relationship started again.

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Few months after I moved to Singapore, he came over to visit. =)

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He came down to Singapore to celebrate my birthday in 2010.

It was tough because after that, we didn’t see each for 6 months. After that, I would try to fly back to KL every month just to see him. I don’t blame him for not finding me in Singapore because the currency rate was (and still is) unacceptably high for him. We would plan trips so we could spend time together from all the other times we couldn’t spend because of the distance.

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Our first overseas trip together to Melbourne, Australia in 2010

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Us in Brisbane, Australia in 2010. Josh won a pair of flight ticket, so we went to Brisbane and Gold Coast that year end.

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During his first CNY in Kuantan

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Our trip to Bangkok, Thailand in 2011

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Our trip to Hoi An, Vietnam in 2012

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At Hard Rock Cafe, Penang. After arriving from Hoi An, we went straight to Penang. This is the only picture of us haha. The rest are either all food of our individual pictures.

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Bangkok, Thailand, 2012 (It wasn’t 2013 yet that time!)

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Hanoi, Vietnam, 2012

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Osaka, Japan, 2013

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Tokyo, Japan, 2013

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Perth, Australia, 2014 As years passes by, Josh started working and have the opportunity to work overseas.

Currently, he is now in Beijing. And, I have been going over to Beijing the past month to visit him.

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Beijing, China, June 2014

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Beijing, China, August 2014.

If you guys notice, in most of our pictures, Josh is always on the right and I am always on the left. lol. All because of angle. Lol. I’m fine at any side, but he is not haha. Not just the angle la actually, it is also because he is used to use his left hand to hold the camera for selfie, and I am used to holding the camera with my right hand when I selfie. That explains why.

Ok back to our LDR topic.

You’re travelling again?! I salute you as you have so many commitments (I only share to some people) but yet you are able to travel.

Josh and I love travelling. And because we see each other once in a while, the money that we don’t spend on each other are spent on our travels. And Josh is the most aunty person ever la for a guy. He is a super budget person so everything from flight to accommodation is cheap. And he will bargain kao kao and I will just pay that dude the money. Though they cheat my money but I kesian them la, they all work so hard yet earn so little already. Of course, I won’t pay USD10 for a slice of pineapple la. But if it is USD1 (RM3+), I will still pay for it instead of bargaining. Well, the only thing Josh is willing to spend on is on FOOD. He paid for the Kobe beef we had in Japan. I though it was unreasonably expensive but after eating it, ok la worth paying that unreasonable price.

I admit, I am broke most of the time. My bank savings is almost empty most of the time and I have debts to settle too. Nowadays, I don’t shop like how I used to. I spend my money mostly on travels, gadgets, courses and trainings. My grandmother will nag me and say that I don’t know how to save money for the future. To be honest, half of my salary is gone into forced savings. I signed up for an insurance savings programme and now that I am a Singapore PR, 20% of my savings is going into my CPF. At least I will be richer when I turn 45 (my insurance plan is til age 45 only) and even richer when I turn 55. Haha. That if I continue staying in Singapore la, right? But I think I better have plan B now, just incase I won’t be residing in Singapore in a few years time. Now that I changed my job, I hope that I am able to save at least 20-30% of my savings once I settle all my debts.

Looking back, God has been blessing us. From free flights to super cheap flight tickets. And despite being broke, I still have enough to bless others (in 2012 and early 2014, I blessed my sisters on our trip to Bangkok and Hanoi and family on our trip to Perth).

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With my sisters in Hanoi, Vietnam, 2012.

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With my family (mom didn’t wanna come along for the trip) in Perth, Australia earlier this year.


How often do you see each other?

Before Josh went over to Beijing, we used to go out dating monthly. Usually, it was either I go back to KL or he comes to Singapore. If we don’t go out paktor, we will spend time at home – either at my home in Singapore or KL or at his home in KL and fall asleep on the couch. (Yeah, we love sleeping. That’s the thing we have in common, we love sleeping. We can sleep at literally, anywhere). But now, we could only see each other once every few months. Yes, he still goes back to KL every month as he is just on normal business visa. Though he is back in KL, it doesn’t mean I can go over to visit as I have work commitments too and the timing doesn’t fit to my schedule. And he, is unable to come to Singapore because he wants to spend time with his friends and family and attend events for his blogging stuff.

I was looking at public holidays at both sides (Singapore and China) and learnt that China will have a week of National Day public holiday in October. So happen, Hari Raya Haji falls on one of the days. I asked Josh if he could come over to visit me in Singapore (he has 7 days, I have only 1 day!), but he rather go travel as he doesn’t have much annual leave. So he uses public holidays as an opportunity to travel and relax. Since Beijing is so near to places like Korea, Taiwan and Japan, I understand why he wants to go travel instead of going back to KL or to Singapore for me.

The next time I will be able to see him is during Christmas, as we will be travelling to Taiwan for our year end holiday with his friends. Can’t wait!


But he is in China, you not scared he will have another woman ah? You know, it’s China.

I get that all the time when I tell people that Josh is working in China. First reaction is, “That’s it lah. There goes your boyfriend. China woman very flirty one” or “So you’re going Beijing so often to check him out to make sure he doesn’t have any other woman?” Honestly, all those statement are very discouraging. Instead of telling me positive stuff, here goes all the negative ones. I am human, I do think negatively at times too. I still think of all those “what ifs“. In addition, I did had this thought, during his long public holiday break, he wants to go travel instead of visiting me. Who will he be going with? With a girl? or with a guy?

Anyway, I was the one who encouraged him to take up the job in China. He had 2 job offers that time. One is with a company in Malaysia, that also allows him to go to Singapore and work in their office there at anytime if he misses me (which company so sweet will allow such thing, right?!) and the other one is a promising company based in Beijing. I told him to go for the one in Beijing so he could learn to be independent and this job will also help him build up his portfolio. Another reason is so I can take this opportunity to travel to a land I have not been to lol. Beijing is now my 4th home. Haha.

So yeah, despite all those negative remarks on Josh will dump me for a China woman, I’ll just continue to trust him like how I have been trusting him the past 10+ years. That’s basically the key to our long lasting long distance relationship – TRUST.


How can you tahan? It’s been so long already!

My standard answer is: “Used to it already.” But now, it is not about getting used to it. Yup, it has been so long already and to be honest, I feel so 辛苦 when I miss him. Its gets harder as I get older. Maybe when we were younger, we rather be alone and enjoy our time with friends. Josh, still enjoys having the freedom without me around – no one to control his lifestyle. But to me, I want comfort from him most of the time. I am not as sociable as much as Josh is. I am a home person but Josh is the opposite.

But this is long distance relationship. We will need to accommodate to each other’s needs. Years ago, I used to get upset that he often goes home during the wee hours, not getting enough sleep or not sleeping at all, sleeping at the wrong hours causing people to be unhappy. He would comply, but after awhile he started doing it again because he said “No life“. So I learnt to give in. I still nag once a while la, but most of the time I will just ask nicely and advise him to sleep earlier. I told him, “OK la, enjoy your bachelor life. After married you can’t enjoy as much already. You have to enjoy with me liao.”

Nowadays, I had to accommodate to his timing unless when I travel all the way to find him, he will try his best to take work off and spend time with me. Sometimes, when I go back to KL and he has events to go to, he will ask me to follow him. Now that he don’t have much annual leaves and only depend on the public holidays there in China, I have to plan my leaves accordingly. And recently, he told me may be transferred to another country, I can’t  plan my/our trips early as I do not know when will he be transferred over and the public holidays there are different again.

So, during the times when we are unable to see each other, we will get busy with our work. I, will sign up for courses like the Make up and Hairstyling Diploma course, pilates, photography and do side jobs like face paintings, photoshoots and make up to get Josh off my mind during the day. For Josh, he will go out with his friends, go for events and blog to keep himself occupied. Before the day ends, I will allow myself to miss him and emo during the night. Hahahaha.


So when are you both getting married? It’s time already!

We want to! But not so soon. One of the reason why is because of our distance. I don’t wanna get married and then still living separately like how we have been for the past 11 years. Neither both of us can let go of our jobs due to some reasons. There are also other reasons but they are more personal. But don’t worry, we will get married when the time comes.

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But….you know what? I just hope this long distance relationship thing will end. It is getting tougher and tougher to cope each day. Sudah tak boleh tahan liao.. But anyway, “it is what it is” (Dr MK, 2012).

I am thankful you all who have been supporting us all the way. It mean a lot to us. =)


P/s: Please mind my grammar. The more I go through, the more I will add on words instead of checking my grammar. Heh.

My First 3 Days in Beijing

Since Josh was relocated to Beijing, I have been looking at flight tickets to Beijing as often as I could. This was my 2nd trip to Beijing in less than 3 months! Lol. Speaking of love sick right. Though we have been in long distance relationship for close to 11 years, I can’t help but to still miss him terribly every single day, even when I am at work. I get really bored when no one talks to me or scold me or disturb me or bully me, thats why my mind is just thinking of that dude. Yeah, day dreaming about going dating with my boyfriend. I miss my boyfriend most before I go to sleep. Thats why almost every single day I will call him, just to hear him say “Hi”, and i’m satisfied. No, listening to recorded version of his voice doesn’t feel as syiok as this one. Aiya, this kind of feeling very hard to explain one….

Anyway, so my 2nd trip to Beijing. I know he will be at busy at work. I went to Beijing on weekdays due to my limited last leaves and expected to be alone at home during the day time. It wasn’t so bad after all. I wake up past 12pm every single day! I love this kind of life, nobody disturb my beauty sleep and I can sleep all day long. Haha. Plus, he lives in a very beautiful and clean apartment.

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The whole apartment is surrounded by a garden. Very romantic if wanna berdating hehe.

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Kid playing football in the evening.

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How not to love this place right? I feel so happy and comfortable just being at home! My first day in Beijing was basically my sleeping day. I woke up close to 1pm and the boyfriend brought home lunch he bought from the food court. It was yummy la the food he bought. No wonder he never lost any weight… After lunch, he went back to work and I was browsing through the MiTV programmes and felt sleepy. I actually planned to visit the mall (which is less than 5 minutes walk away how cool is that!!) to buy groceries to cook for dinner, but I was feeling so tired I went back to bed again until urm, 7pm I think. Josh came home at around 8pm and we went to Wudaukou for dinner at a small Japanese Restaurant (Chinese style) haha. The food was not bad actually. The next day, I woke up past 12pm and went to the mall to meet Josh for lunch. Then I went to Walmart to shop for groceries and that was the TOUGHEST grocery shopping ever in my whole life. Firstly, I don’t read Chinese. So I don’t know what they were. Secondly, the meat looks…scary.. At the end of my grocery shopping, I just bought Siew Pak Choy, Tanghoon, eggs, kiwi, garlic, banana milk, salk, oyster sauce. Thats all.

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My banana milk. Quite yummy!

Sad, I know… That’s all for this day. Went home feeling bored so I started taking pictures of his toys.

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and behold….

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the awesome pawsome MiTV!

On my 3rd day, don’t be surprised because yes I woke up past 12pm again. Went to the mall to meet Josh for lunch again and off I went shopping while Josh got back to work.

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Went to H&M and went home to laze at home and selfie and got ready to go out for dinner with Josh (finally I can dress up to go dating!). By the time we went for dinner it was 9.30pm already. We went to Hai Di Lou at Wangfujing for dinner. Dinner was awesome!

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After dinner we went jalan-jalan along Wangfujing.

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Passed by a prostitute who approached an ang moh man (who was with his wife) and offered her service. When he refused, she start showing her middle finger and say “F*** you! F*** your wife! You have small d*** so you scared! F*** your sister! F*** your mother! F*** your grandmother!”   O___O


So yeah, that’s all for my first 3 days in Beijing!

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<3 tiff (and josh)

Worry… Not.

I have just arrived home from my short trip back to KL. It was a random and last minute trip, to satisfy my cravings for food and also simply because I miss my boyfriend. Other than that I also catched up with Kel Li and Nigel. It as a good night!

Anyway, the post is more about myself. So here it goes.

I didn’t get to attend City Harvest on Sunday morning because I didn’t have transport. Usually if my sister have to serve in church on Sunday morning, I will send her to church at 7am, drive home, get ready for church and drive back for service at 10am. However, she had to leave home at 6.30am and had to fetch her friend. So I decided to sleep in and attend Kingdom City at 5pm with Pao, who overnight at my place.

Invited Josh along for service and I must say, there must be a reason why I was willing to spend so much on my flight ticket just this trip back to KL. And there also must be a reason why I felt so tired and wanting to sleep in and feel bad and go to other church that day.

The moment I stepped into Kingdom City at Luther Centre, I felt such strong presence of God. It’s been awhile since I really felt His presence. I was ministered at the point of worship already. Fast forward, Pastor Jemima spoke about a very simple message on “Building a Foundation that Lasts”. It was so simple, but it was as if she was telling me directly, “hey, this is for you!”

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You can listen to the sermon online by clicking here.

Honestly, I am a person who wants to achieve many. I wanna learn so much until sometimes people calls me a superwoman or over ambitious because I am doing so much, just to find achievement. However, when something disappoints me, I start crushing down and being negative. The best person who knows all these is my boyfriend and my sister. I can get really really really negative about everything around me and about myself and start blaming the people who are close to me for everything (i’m sorry….. 🙁 ). Other than that, I worry for every single thing on planet earth. Hence, why I try to work so hard to find enough money so I could live a comfortable life. And with all these negativity, I turned away from God.

After service, Josh told me something random.

You should be like your brother you know…
Why should I?” I asked.
Josh spoke something that made me realized one thing that I have never thought before, “I have not seen your brother getting angry. He is a person who doesn’t worry about anything. I always see him so happy despite so many failures in his life. Yet, he doesn’t give up, he still find ways to work things out.”

I remember arguing with my brother and stated all my thoughts to him. I remember him telling me, “Why worry? God will provide!
“Yes, God will provide! But with your kind of carefree attitude, not doing what you are supposed to do, playing computer games all the time, failing your studies, how do you think it will happened?“, I argued back.
O you little faith“.
The argument went on and I got so annoyed, I told him I was very upset and hurt for not being appreciated. He apologized.

I got more annoyed when I have do to so much and still don’t feel any achievement, but my brother doesn’t have to do anything but still receive so much and I always thought why  #theworldissounfair

But I got to know something this weekend. My sister shared with me something that got me thinking back on that argument I had with my brother some time ago, and that statement Josh said to me. Despite all the failures that made us all upset and embarassed most of the time, he has been SO BLESSED. I don’t wanna reveal anything yet until all is confirmed (no, he is not getting married yet lol). He is gonna be what he said of before and no one could think this will ever happen.

He trusted God.
He cast all his worries to God.
He allowed God to take control of His life.
He is ALWAYS HAPPY despite ALL the scoldings.
He is also famous…. everybody knows Abishua Tan. hahahaha

“Do not limit God”, Josh reminded me after church service.

Basically, the topic throughout my whole weekend is about being positive, being happy and worry less. Then, Josh forwarded me a quote via Whatsapp,

“Science has shown that negative emotions like stress can harm performance and cause negative side effects to the human body. Likewise, positive emotions like joy have huge impact on sleep, performance, health and recovery”.

Very true. I always fell sick, have all kinds of diseases and I visit the doctor so often like I go shopping in shopping malls.

Throughout my trip back, I was reading John Green’s “The Fault In Our Stars”. The character in this book, Hazel and Augustus both have cancer. But from the beginning to the end of the book, Hazel and Augustus lived their life to the fullest despite Hazel having to be on oxygen all the time.

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They never worry. They never blamed anyone for what they are going through. Kept me reflecting about my life. I always think it sucks, but there are other people’s life that is suckier.

A must read. This is probably one of the first time that I finished reading a book in less than a week. #achievementunlocked hahaha. Can’t wait to watch the movie though.

Learning to love and appreciate myself, my life, the people around me, my family, my leaders, my church and my beloved boyfriend. I’m glad my family and my boyfriend has been so patient on me and has yet to give up on the oh so negative daughter/sister/girlfriend.

A short trip but yet a fulfilling, fruitful and amazing one. I have found that peace once again. Learning to cast all my burdens unto Him.

If God gives such attention to the appearance of wildflowers—most of which are never even seen—don’t you think he’ll attend to you, take pride in you, do his best for you? What I’m trying to do here is to get you to relax, to not be so preoccupied with getting, so you can respond to God’s giving. People who don’t know God and the way he works fuss over these things, but you know both God and how he works. Steep your life in God-reality, God-initiative, God-provisions. Don’t worry about missing out. You’ll find all your everyday human concerns will be met. Give your entire attention to what God is doing right now, and don’t get worked up about what may or may not happen tomorrow. God will help you deal with whatever hard things come up when the time comes. (Matt 6:30-34) The Message.


2014 Thus Far

Before I continue on with my post, here’s a shout out to my lil sister Abigail…

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You will be forever this little in our hearts. No matter how old you are!

Ok, lets move on with my post now.

The first 4 month of 2014 has been very eventful. From the first day to this current day. Since I have not been blogging religiously, I will write about the happenings in each month.

This is the month where it was the toughest for me. on 10 January 2014, yeh yeh was called Home by the Lord after 2 years of battling with Pancreatic Cancer.

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As I was the only close family member in Singapore other than my grandmother, I had to take be responsible for many things. From his admission to the hospital to the arrangement of his funeral to settling his insurance claims, change of names, etc. I even broke down because it was too overwhelming. Thank God for my other relatives who were kind to offer help. As a foreigner in Singapore, I do not know what were the procedures especially for the funeral. Grandma was emotionally unstable for a few awhile, but she was strong. We even managed to go back to Kuantan for Chinese New Year though she had to keep in mind of the all the pantang. 

Flew over to Perth for my graduation! Brought my family, grandma, grandaunt and Josh along. But sadly, mom couldn’t join us as she was busy at her kindergarten and also she’s afraid to fly.

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I was the only one among my friends from Singapore who flew down to Perth for the graduation. Too kiasu and in desperation to get my allowance quick. Haha. Well, I saw a few familiar faces though but I’m not close to them. So just smile, hi and bye.

My birthday month! Turned 26 this year and I can’t imagine I’ll be 30 in just 4 years time.

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Nothing much happened this month except that Josh came down for my birthday. <3 Just love having him by my side.

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and I finally own a Wacom tablet! Thanks a lot dear, really love it TTM! But I haven’t use it yet. Heh…

And, oh. I enrolled myself in another course. This time, a language course. I sucks in language. Despite going to class twice a week, I still cannot cope and also can’t speak! Forgive me… up to date, it’s only my 2nd month learning a whole new language!

I also had my Singapore PR approved! What a joy (and heartache knowing my salary will be lesser than before because of the CPF deduction)  as now I have more freedom to do more things over here in Singapore (eg. change job. HAHAHAH)

The busiest month yet. Been offered quite a lot of make up and face painting jobs! I would say I have earned quite a lot of side income this month. And work has been very busy too.. i would say I am financially blessed this month.

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Sometimes I wish there are people who will help me take pictures during my make up jobs. It’s such a shame that I am not able to take much pictures during the makeover and the the outcome as most of the time there ain’t much time for me to do so.

Face painting has been quite fun too. But for a person who doesn’t draw, it can be quite challenging. There are technique and doesn’t really require one to know drawing though. As long as you master the stroking techniques,  you will be able to come out with some decent designs.

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Somehow I like this picture although my artwork on their faces are gone from the smudging and their sweat.

Since I have not posted any pictures on my face painting gigs, I shall post the past gigs here too.

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Most of the time, I won’t have time to take pictures during the gigs, hence the limited pictures. Sometimes, the whole paint smudges and the doesn’t look so nice anymore. It’s been about 6 months since I started face painting! I think it’s fun but still need to brush up on my skills.

Need to be quick (3-5 mins/design!) and neat and look pretty too. There are times I made kids look like a tribal people instead of a fairy. lol. I have the picture but for now, I shall not post it up. Too malu-fying.

That’s all for now! Til next time!