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Worry… Not.

I have just arrived home from my short trip back to KL. It was a random and last minute trip, to satisfy my cravings for food and also simply because I miss my boyfriend. Other than that I also catched up with Kel Li and Nigel. It as a good night!

Anyway, the post is more about myself. So here it goes.

I didn’t get to attend City Harvest on Sunday morning because I didn’t have transport. Usually if my sister have to serve in church on Sunday morning, I will send her to church at 7am, drive home, get ready for church and drive back for service at 10am. However, she had to leave home at 6.30am and had to fetch her friend. So I decided to sleep in and attend Kingdom City at 5pm with Pao, who overnight at my place.

Invited Josh along for service and I must say, there must be a reason why I was willing to spend so much on my flight ticket just this trip back to KL. And there also must be a reason why I felt so tired and wanting to sleep in and feel bad and go to other church that day.

The moment I stepped into Kingdom City at Luther Centre, I felt such strong presence of God. It’s been awhile since I really felt His presence. I was ministered at the point of worship already. Fast forward, Pastor Jemima spoke about a very simple message on “Building a Foundation that Lasts”. It was so simple, but it was as if she was telling me directly, “hey, this is for you!”

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You can listen to the sermon online by clicking here.

Honestly, I am a person who wants to achieve many. I wanna learn so much until sometimes people calls me a superwoman or over ambitious because I am doing so much, just to find achievement. However, when something disappoints me, I start crushing down and being negative. The best person who knows all these is my boyfriend and my sister. I can get really really really negative about everything around me and about myself and start blaming the people who are close to me for everything (i’m sorry….. 🙁 ). Other than that, I worry for every single thing on planet earth. Hence, why I try to work so hard to find enough money so I could live a comfortable life. And with all these negativity, I turned away from God.

After service, Josh told me something random.

You should be like your brother you know…
Why should I?” I asked.
Josh spoke something that made me realized one thing that I have never thought before, “I have not seen your brother getting angry. He is a person who doesn’t worry about anything. I always see him so happy despite so many failures in his life. Yet, he doesn’t give up, he still find ways to work things out.”

I remember arguing with my brother and stated all my thoughts to him. I remember him telling me, “Why worry? God will provide!
“Yes, God will provide! But with your kind of carefree attitude, not doing what you are supposed to do, playing computer games all the time, failing your studies, how do you think it will happened?“, I argued back.
O you little faith“.
The argument went on and I got so annoyed, I told him I was very upset and hurt for not being appreciated. He apologized.

I got more annoyed when I have do to so much and still don’t feel any achievement, but my brother doesn’t have to do anything but still receive so much and I always thought why  #theworldissounfair

But I got to know something this weekend. My sister shared with me something that got me thinking back on that argument I had with my brother some time ago, and that statement Josh said to me. Despite all the failures that made us all upset and embarassed most of the time, he has been SO BLESSED. I don’t wanna reveal anything yet until all is confirmed (no, he is not getting married yet lol). He is gonna be what he said of before and no one could think this will ever happen.

He trusted God.
He cast all his worries to God.
He allowed God to take control of His life.
He is ALWAYS HAPPY despite ALL the scoldings.
He is also famous…. everybody knows Abishua Tan. hahahaha

“Do not limit God”, Josh reminded me after church service.

Basically, the topic throughout my whole weekend is about being positive, being happy and worry less. Then, Josh forwarded me a quote via Whatsapp,

“Science has shown that negative emotions like stress can harm performance and cause negative side effects to the human body. Likewise, positive emotions like joy have huge impact on sleep, performance, health and recovery”.

Very true. I always fell sick, have all kinds of diseases and I visit the doctor so often like I go shopping in shopping malls.

Throughout my trip back, I was reading John Green’s “The Fault In Our Stars”. The character in this book, Hazel and Augustus both have cancer. But from the beginning to the end of the book, Hazel and Augustus lived their life to the fullest despite Hazel having to be on oxygen all the time.

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They never worry. They never blamed anyone for what they are going through. Kept me reflecting about my life. I always think it sucks, but there are other people’s life that is suckier.

A must read. This is probably one of the first time that I finished reading a book in less than a week. #achievementunlocked hahaha. Can’t wait to watch the movie though.

Learning to love and appreciate myself, my life, the people around me, my family, my leaders, my church and my beloved boyfriend. I’m glad my family and my boyfriend has been so patient on me and has yet to give up on the oh so negative daughter/sister/girlfriend.

A short trip but yet a fulfilling, fruitful and amazing one. I have found that peace once again. Learning to cast all my burdens unto Him.

If God gives such attention to the appearance of wildflowers—most of which are never even seen—don’t you think he’ll attend to you, take pride in you, do his best for you? What I’m trying to do here is to get you to relax, to not be so preoccupied with getting, so you can respond to God’s giving. People who don’t know God and the way he works fuss over these things, but you know both God and how he works. Steep your life in God-reality, God-initiative, God-provisions. Don’t worry about missing out. You’ll find all your everyday human concerns will be met. Give your entire attention to what God is doing right now, and don’t get worked up about what may or may not happen tomorrow. God will help you deal with whatever hard things come up when the time comes. (Matt 6:30-34) The Message.

 

How I ended up being a Make Up Artist

Remember my previous post on me mentioning that I enrolled for a Make Up Course? Well, I have finally graduated from the course and now officially a certified make up artist!

Anyway, let’s side track a bit and allow me to story you a bit on how I ended up going into make up artistry.

What interest me in taking up a make up course is because I like art. If many of you people who knows me long enough, will know that I like art (though I’m not born an artistic person like my father and brother) but I just like to create things related to design, arts and crafts since young. And because of financial issues, I couldn’t pursue into it as much as I wanted to and ended up in nursing, in which my seniors told me “Nursing is also an art“. Which is true lah, as nurses need to design the best way to care for their patients.

Anyways….

I spent most of my time looking for part time courses related to art or even practice them on friends for free, just to fulfil my satisfaction. First in mind was photography. As I really love taking pictures, I took up photography classes, learnt tricks online and put them into practice on my friends. I used whatever knowledge I have about Photoshop to edit pictures or create something (which is not professional lah).

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 photo 526221_10150628162841546_1370260733_n.jpgTaken for Rose and Baldwin’s Pre Wedding in 2012.

These pictures are the most professionally captured by me (though not pro at all la). I spent lots of money, lots of hours just to practice on my skills without charging the couple a single cent (but i got some yummy filipino food in return hehe). Some people will compliment, some will critique – which is expected lah. And because photography requires a lot of money, time and energy, I decided to take it slow. I only take pictures when I am free (I am working full time and doing my Degree as well). I kinda even sold my camera to Josh because he uses the camera more than I do and when I need it, I will just pinjam from him. Smart lehhh…hahaha

Ok….so…taking up a make up course was never on my mind although everyday I watch Michelle Phan‘s make up tutorials and practice on myself. I don’t know what inspired me to take up the make up course actually. Haha. MAYBE… as usual, I was looking up for art/design related courses and I suddenly had the thought to learn professional make up art. I thought no one will support me, so I kinda applied it quietly, trying to keep it a secret to people whom I thought will think it’s a waste of time and money. You know lah, older people tend to think nursing, engineering, law, medicine courses are the best courses in the whole wide world and have the everything-else-is-just-a-waste-of-time kind of mentality.

I always believe in pursuing in something that gives you satisfaction and makes you happy. You may be a very superb lawyer or engineer but you may not enjoy what you do. Since I am in a job I don’t really enjoy doing (though very challenging and noble – which I like) but I don’t like the shift duties, doing calls, feeling miserable most of the time due to horrible work politics and not having much social life (most nurses don’t have friends who are not nurses…hmm…like me) and I couldn’t attend church as I need to work. One reason why I started signing up for courses is to meet new friends and do something that will divert my mind away from work related stresses. And of course, maybe one day….quit my job and just paint people’s face.

When I first signed up for the make up course, I was expecting some bimbos to be there. You know, those kind of girls who will apply lots of make ups and the know it all about make ups or those girls who just hate studying and want to pursue make up because they hate studying/can’t study and a make up course does not require any qualification unlike other design courses offered in college or universities and only speaks Chinese……. yadayadayadayada…And….my heart was prepared. To face these people.

But on the first day of class, the first person I met was Xuann. She was pleasant and friendly. And she is a teacher in a primary school. So, I thought, I wasn’t alone! And 8 more girls turned up and wow…. NONE of them were bimbo at all. HAHA! No thick make ups! All of us have a full time job, all professional jobs! There are teachers, engineer, finance, marketing, professional hairdresser, beauty advisor and me, a nurse. And they all joined the course for the same purpose – to explore something new so they can quit their jobs one day. Hahaha. I am glad. SO GLAD that my classmates are awesome people!

As all of us have our full time jobs, it is actually very tiring to come to class 3 time a week. The course is for 6 months and we have to pass our theory and practical exams in order to graduate with a diploma.

 photo d12d8c40-b964-448b-8475-9ab763700cc2.jpgOne of the earlier classes – Bohemian make-up

 photo afd8b45d-730c-4bde-967e-06d9e51fbd31.jpgThe before and after picture of my model. Created this look based on my story I created. Can’t remember liao. hahaha. 

 photo 23557962-6987-4ae6-8416-5574d66c890b.jpgFaridah’s strong and arrogant make up based on a faceless picture given by my teacher.

 photo 94ce05fe-c703-4020-b6f0-ebdc261f9f39.jpgSpecial effects class. Creating wounds. I didn’t want to put anything on my face, do I did on my arm. 

 photo 077c3a2a-c116-42d9-b2e2-2eb78f9916d4.jpgI had problem doing this look as I couldn’t make my face paler. Then, i realised, I used the wrong brown colour. =______=

 photo d9608394-c9a4-4400-a4e8-b225f5a81045.jpgMy whacky classmates and I with our wounds. 

 photo 5b3b7487-25a2-45da-b011-579cb0a166c9.jpgAretha was one of my model for my exam. This picture was taken during my revision for my exam

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 photo 3e87b9b0-cd6f-4c0f-acd9-f24a4bb7db46.jpgGeraldine was also my model for my exam and I spent a lot of time on her creating a look which I failed to achieve la. Sighh…

 photo 0d2f00be-eba3-4daf-b7ef-df65b84a6e44.jpgI turned my brother into a girl. 

 photo ea81fbab-0dbd-4ec4-b0d2-1c08f11153aa.jpgAnd here, my buddy Xuann and I turned our model into a cute lil owl

 photo 8e867f8f-1969-4fe6-b5f2-fb6fc7e2c95b.jpgPracticed a 1940’s look on Aretha for my exam. 

After the exams, the school gave us an opportunity to help up in a huge stage play called Footprints. It was very exciting and stressful (fun stress haha) to work and experience how is it like being in the world of a makeup artist. The fun part of it is we get to be backstage and be part of the production team. =)

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 photo e5181ed7-923d-442a-84e5-9c9e8bbb896b.jpgXuann and I at our allocated stations. The performers will come and we will do the make ups based on the given reference.

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At the end of the 3 days show, we made new friends and I enjoyed seeing their reaction when I told them I am a full time nurse. Not just a nurse, but an Operating Theatre Nurse. Haha. Then they somehow found me on Instagram and followed on how I live my life as a nurse.

It was a an eye opening experience and I already miss it. Because I kinda enjoy doing stage make up, I volunteered myself to a charity show called the Brave Maeve next month and got to be in charge of the make up team. It is a super stressful task as I am a brand newbie in this profession. Thankfully, the rest of the make up team are my own friends, who are newbies too. Glad they are willing to volunteer.

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Brave Maeve The Musical Poster

And on 10th September 2013…..

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I received my official results and graduated from The Make Up Room with a Diploma in Make Up and Hairstyling Artistry! Not the top in class but it’s okay as I am happy to be able to learn something art related and I am happy that this course helped me in my stress management with work. And I quite like how professional my portfolio looks. As it is difficult to find a freelance job for now as I have a crazy schedule full time job, I guess I will have to start creating my own portfolio from my own photography skills. So stay tuned for that!

SO… This make up course has definitely brought me on a new journey on discovering what I like. Well, I still like photography and design. But I have fallen in love with Make Up Artistry. I like how people turned out to be happy after seeing a new look in them with make up. I like how I am able to create crazy looks for stage performances. I like how I am able to make people look awesome in pictures during photo shoots. I just like seeing people happy. =)

For the past few months towards the end of the course and after the course I spent a lot of money on make up products, to prepare myself into a whole new journey of becoming a makeup artist. A makeup artist takes at least 2-3 years before he/she becomes a reliable makeup artist in the market. For now, I do makeup for free on my friends and charging only around $50 for my clients, which is not enough to cover my expenses of make up products. That is why, I still have my full time job to support my expenses.

However, if any of you, who are aspiring photographers or blogshop owners or fashion designers or bride or models who needs a makeup artist, you can look for me. Depending on what you want, I can either do it with a minimal charge (at least to cover my transport and for me to om nom nom) or for free if you really desperate for one. It will be a win-win situation as the both of us wants to build up our portfolio, right?

Oh, my portfolio pictures? Wait lah. I will post it on my next post. I guess this post has too many pictures already. I will save the pictures for the next post. At least it gives me another reason to blog, right?

So after this make up course, what’s next? Of course more make up course lah! Haha. I am planning to enrol for more make up courses after I complete my Degree. And oh, Pilates! <3 On that, I will blog about it another day (when I have that perfect figure I am dreaming about). hehe.

How to be a blogger?

“Welcome back Tiffanie! Finally you are back after abandoning your blog for a year!”

Yes, it’s been almost a year since I last posted. Blame it on work and uni, I do not have much time and inspirations to blog anymore. I may not have many readers but I thought I should continue this blog thing and make some money haha.

Honestly, I don’t know what to write. And I do not have the time to look pretty and dress pretty and show off on my blog. Maybe when I have a nice figure (with the help of my new addiction – Pilates!) and able to fit in clothings without showing my spare tires, then I will. Self conscious alert! Haha.

To ponder: So what makes you a blogger? I have quite a number of blogger friends (and my bf is also a blogger) and I have met some celebrity bloggers too (thanks to the famous bf). I may not be a blogger (my definition of a blogger is when you have that high traffic and people recognises you as one), but I can still tell you how to be a FEMALE blogger!

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Why not? Haha.

Ok… here is what I think that makes you a blogger. A female blogger.

1. You must have the looks.
Ok, maybe not 100% right on this but your looks must be attractive enough to make guys and GIRLS admire your looks or maybe fall in love with you or maybe hate you for being too pretty or too ugly. You may not have the looks but you can photoshop your eyes, nose, lips, face, boobs, etc to look good on internet and amaze the world but be prepared to receive lots of criticism because you don’t look like how you suppose to look in real life.

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If your photoshop skill fails, maybe you should learn to pick up and practice on it because trust me, people prefer reading blogs with quality content and photos with graphic editings. If you are not the computer savvy kind, mayb you can pick up some make up skills and transform your self

from this

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to

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this!

How amazing makeup can be! <3

2. You must have good sense of fashion and BASIC makeup skills.
You don’t need that super awesome skills yet to transform your whole look like the picture above. Baby steps! Start simple first to just look good (cover up your pimples, dark circles, dullness, etc). Maybe just having that natural look IS you. Find and discover what fits you.
Many girls out there look for inspiration on how to improve their looks and often look out for blogs. I believe every girls will look at blogs and YouTube to pick up these skills. So you must look good at least and dress up to the latest trends or maybe create your own style to attract readers. Above all these, beauty is still your confidence. Show confidence in your pictures, and that’s the secret to attraction and beauty! When you learn to master all these, it will be very natural on you and it will be part of you that you cannot live without. HAHA.

You know, some guys may stalk your blog and some may comment that they prefer simple girls (simple fashion and no makeup). I have seen some bloggers are brave to look unglamorous to show their “real look” but I am sure some girls feel very insecure leaving the house without makeup. Some will even get panicked when they couldn’t find their usual routine to make themselves pretty. ie. contact lens. I have seen patients that put on makeup before going in for surgery and at the end of the surgery, their fake lashes came off and the doctor gets panicked…..

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………because they don’t know how to fix it back. haha.

For me, I will get panicked when i cannot find trusty Shu Uemura my brow pencil.

3. You must be a camwhore / selfie expert.
It’s a girls thing but I see many guys doing this as well. Wherever you go (even in the toilet), go ahead and camwhore and post up pictures on your #ootd or #fotd or #potd. You need other social media platform such as Facebook, Instagram, Twitter to post them up! You can use these platforms to promote yourself too.

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oh hi. Just promoting myself.

4. Whenever you see a camera, pose!
All those model poses, you know? If you can’t pose, just be au naturale. Good enough! Also good for #ootd posts. Some people just love the camera. And you should also develop this new addiction. Just pose! Or maybe plan some photoshoots and have some good quality pictures to be posted up on your blog. Get a friend who is kind to snap your pictures for free. Get a friend who has boleh tahan punya photography skills at least. You wouldn’t want to ruin the whole photoshoot with the wrong angles and poor management of camera settings that make you look unpleasantly fat or ugly. Then, with your good fashion taste and make up and the confidence in you, you will have many followers on your blog soon, then soon your fan-ci!

5. Join a blogging community / agency such as Nuffnang/Advertlets/GushAds.
This is where you get to meet other bloggers, monitor your blog statistics and earn some money. When your blog traffic hits a certain number and have a consistency in maintaining that traffic, you have high chance to be given assignments on reviewing products and events. You may also get free movie or event passes and meet all those bloggers you have been following and inspired by.

6. Socialize.
It’s a good thing to mix around and making new friends! But to be a blogger, try attending events where you will meet other bloggers too. You must be known to your friends as “you super on one!” where you are always at events, concerts, parties, etc. with other bloggers. You need to mix in with the right people (because they will recommend you, post you on their blogs or other social sites).

I have been to events but I don’t really mix around as I am not really into blogging about the events or to gain popularity. But of course, I have met some people and some of them are really famous bloggers. Here are a few pictures of events I have attended with the bf. I can say he is well known because people on his left, right, up and down also he knows.

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Johnnie Walker The Black Circuit 2011
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NAPBAS 2011
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with Audrey of fourfeetnine.com at NAPBAS 2011
 

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with Nic Gan, Kenny Sia, Joyce Wong and the bf at NAPBAS 2011
 

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Johnnie Walker 2012

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Chin Kent’s wedding.

Haha. Not any media event but I like this picture so I wanna post it up. =P

7. Review as much products as you can.
Many people tend to search for reviews on certain products, movies, albums, institutions, clothings, etc. Though you are not paid for the reviews, just go ahead and do your reviews! You need to invest in getting more traffic to your blogs and slowly have agencies/companies recognising your capabilities in advertising their products. One of my friend who enjoys blogging because of her readers enjoys doing reviews on products she used. I believe one day she will be one of the top blogger too. Do visit Jo-Ann’s blog at joannwithadash.blogspot.sg and I believe you will get hooked too because of her vainity yet humble blog that is slowly gaining popularity. =)

8. Blog with responsibility!
Your blog is viewed by the world (depending on your content). Even my low profile blog is being viewed all over the world for this one post I posted 2 years ago.

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The content of your blog must be good and attractive that keep readers and Google addicts coming back to your blog. Blog about how beautiful you are. Blog about your travel to India. Blog about how you sleep. Blog about how much you love your dog. Just blog! But blog responsibly!

Yes, it is your blog. You can blog about anything you want. You can whine and complain all you want. But as a blogger, you are responsible for all the post you post up. You are responsible for the words you write as it reflects your attitude. You may be famous already and you wouldn’t care at all. But you wouldn’t like if others talk bad about you on blogposts too, right? Sometimes I wonder, is this call “blogging abuse” which is similar to “verbal abuse”. To be an influential blogger, stay humble, accept criticism and grow in your passion.

 

So far I can only think of these few. But I am sure there are more than this that makes you a blogger.

I also don’t know why am I writing about this and I don’t know when will I be blogging again.

Need to start on my assignment soon!

(wow…close to 1500 words. That is equivalent to the word count my analytical project that I will take a couple of days to complete!)

My Blog Layout is Boring and I Know It.

So…. I have changed my blog layout because the picture on my header previously was taken about 5 years ago. Temporarily, I just put a simple font header there first.

But now I find changing layout super ma fan (troublesome) compared to those days when I have the freedom to do whatever I want on my blog because now my blog domain is under the bf. All because of having a .com I need to endure this. So every time I wanna install a theme or plugin, I need his password and he wouldn’t give it to me for security purposes. Banyak sien.

So hence, my boring layout at the moment while i figure out html that I have longggggg forgotten…