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Worry… Not.

I have just arrived home from my short trip back to KL. It was a random and last minute trip, to satisfy my cravings for food and also simply because I miss my boyfriend. Other than that I also catched up with Kel Li and Nigel. It as a good night!

Anyway, the post is more about myself. So here it goes.

I didn’t get to attend City Harvest on Sunday morning because I didn’t have transport. Usually if my sister have to serve in church on Sunday morning, I will send her to church at 7am, drive home, get ready for church and drive back for service at 10am. However, she had to leave home at 6.30am and had to fetch her friend. So I decided to sleep in and attend Kingdom City at 5pm with Pao, who overnight at my place.

Invited Josh along for service and I must say, there must be a reason why I was willing to spend so much on my flight ticket just this trip back to KL. And there also must be a reason why I felt so tired and wanting to sleep in and feel bad and go to other church that day.

The moment I stepped into Kingdom City at Luther Centre, I felt such strong presence of God. It’s been awhile since I really felt His presence. I was ministered at the point of worship already. Fast forward, Pastor Jemima spoke about a very simple message on “Building a Foundation that Lasts”. It was so simple, but it was as if she was telling me directly, “hey, this is for you!”

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You can listen to the sermon online by clicking here.

Honestly, I am a person who wants to achieve many. I wanna learn so much until sometimes people calls me a superwoman or over ambitious because I am doing so much, just to find achievement. However, when something disappoints me, I start crushing down and being negative. The best person who knows all these is my boyfriend and my sister. I can get really really really negative about everything around me and about myself and start blaming the people who are close to me for everything (i’m sorry….. 🙁 ). Other than that, I worry for every single thing on planet earth. Hence, why I try to work so hard to find enough money so I could live a comfortable life. And with all these negativity, I turned away from God.

After service, Josh told me something random.

You should be like your brother you know…
Why should I?” I asked.
Josh spoke something that made me realized one thing that I have never thought before, “I have not seen your brother getting angry. He is a person who doesn’t worry about anything. I always see him so happy despite so many failures in his life. Yet, he doesn’t give up, he still find ways to work things out.”

I remember arguing with my brother and stated all my thoughts to him. I remember him telling me, “Why worry? God will provide!
“Yes, God will provide! But with your kind of carefree attitude, not doing what you are supposed to do, playing computer games all the time, failing your studies, how do you think it will happened?“, I argued back.
O you little faith“.
The argument went on and I got so annoyed, I told him I was very upset and hurt for not being appreciated. He apologized.

I got more annoyed when I have do to so much and still don’t feel any achievement, but my brother doesn’t have to do anything but still receive so much and I always thought why  #theworldissounfair

But I got to know something this weekend. My sister shared with me something that got me thinking back on that argument I had with my brother some time ago, and that statement Josh said to me. Despite all the failures that made us all upset and embarassed most of the time, he has been SO BLESSED. I don’t wanna reveal anything yet until all is confirmed (no, he is not getting married yet lol). He is gonna be what he said of before and no one could think this will ever happen.

He trusted God.
He cast all his worries to God.
He allowed God to take control of His life.
He is ALWAYS HAPPY despite ALL the scoldings.
He is also famous…. everybody knows Abishua Tan. hahahaha

“Do not limit God”, Josh reminded me after church service.

Basically, the topic throughout my whole weekend is about being positive, being happy and worry less. Then, Josh forwarded me a quote via Whatsapp,

“Science has shown that negative emotions like stress can harm performance and cause negative side effects to the human body. Likewise, positive emotions like joy have huge impact on sleep, performance, health and recovery”.

Very true. I always fell sick, have all kinds of diseases and I visit the doctor so often like I go shopping in shopping malls.

Throughout my trip back, I was reading John Green’s “The Fault In Our Stars”. The character in this book, Hazel and Augustus both have cancer. But from the beginning to the end of the book, Hazel and Augustus lived their life to the fullest despite Hazel having to be on oxygen all the time.

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They never worry. They never blamed anyone for what they are going through. Kept me reflecting about my life. I always think it sucks, but there are other people’s life that is suckier.

A must read. This is probably one of the first time that I finished reading a book in less than a week. #achievementunlocked hahaha. Can’t wait to watch the movie though.

Learning to love and appreciate myself, my life, the people around me, my family, my leaders, my church and my beloved boyfriend. I’m glad my family and my boyfriend has been so patient on me and has yet to give up on the oh so negative daughter/sister/girlfriend.

A short trip but yet a fulfilling, fruitful and amazing one. I have found that peace once again. Learning to cast all my burdens unto Him.

If God gives such attention to the appearance of wildflowers—most of which are never even seen—don’t you think he’ll attend to you, take pride in you, do his best for you? What I’m trying to do here is to get you to relax, to not be so preoccupied with getting, so you can respond to God’s giving. People who don’t know God and the way he works fuss over these things, but you know both God and how he works. Steep your life in God-reality, God-initiative, God-provisions. Don’t worry about missing out. You’ll find all your everyday human concerns will be met. Give your entire attention to what God is doing right now, and don’t get worked up about what may or may not happen tomorrow. God will help you deal with whatever hard things come up when the time comes. (Matt 6:30-34) The Message.

 

Taken

Hands that write the story of my life
I trust in You alone
Spirit be my Guide

Dreams that die, they come to life again
My future stands secure
In my Father’s hands

(Pre-Chorus)
I can’t deny, a love so true
Breaks me down till I’ve got nothing to hide
I can’t deny, the hope I feel
Forever undivided, You and i

(Chorus)
Because you gave I’m taken out of misery
Because you died I’m rescued from my sin and shame
Because you love I found my heart to love again
You’ve taken me
And set me free

My Christmas – Happiness

My Christmas was simple.

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Headed to church for Christmas service in the afternoon. Heard many amazing testimonies.
Pastor preached about happiness. There are 3 level of happiness.

1. Happy
2. Happier
3. Happiest

Nah, just kidding.

The first is Pleasure. Don’t deny that money does give you happiness. Shopping does give us happiness. Owning a brand new gadget, car, clothes, bags does give us happiness. But these happiness is only temporary. Agree?

The second one is Passion. We all have passion. Passion for blogging. Passion for designing. Passion for nursing. And these passion gives us happiness to an extend. We love working at what we are passionate for. True? You can put it in your hobbies too. The happiness level is longer than pleasure. When you have passion for something, it gives you pleasure. So it goes like this. I once have lotsa passion in cycling. Now, I don’t cycle anymore. I found a new passion. Which is sleeping. HAHA! That cycling passion has fade off.

And the last one is Purpose. Whatever we do, when we found the purpose in what we wanna do, the happiness is long lasting. Therefore, when we know the purpose, we will have the passion, and it gives us pleasure. So instead of starting off with pleasure, why not start off with having a purpose?

What is your purpose living in this world? We can see many unhappy people around because mainly they do not know the main purpose of life. So true, it kept me to ponder. I have a few people asked before, few years ago. And quite often, their answers will be, “To enjoy lor. Die already cannot enjoy ma.”

Ya lah. Enjoy must be happy right? But why so much unhappiness? The enjoyment is just temporary.

So ask yourself. What is your purpose in life? Is life just how you are living? Or is there more than just that?

Rachel gave one great awesome testimony that had a great link to the levels of happiness. Her story was just like any other person who thinks life is just doing what you wanna do, thinking life was just like how you and me live everyday. Whatever that gives her pleasure still led her to so much sadness and she just didn’t know why despite having so much pleasure in shopping and spending all of her savings off. Finally, she found her purpose in life, which is in God. She found God in her lowest moment of her life when she was not even a believer yet. And now, her life is changed, into a happier person, a person full of dreams and vision, and knowing her purpose in life.

She owns a blogshop, that was then, just an ordinary blogshop with no purpose, no vision. Now, she designs her own label and best of all, have a story behind every design. All are inspiring and I love reading them. Do drop by http://thankgodformyspringfling.tumblr.com/ for her writings and of course her blogshop!

Do watch this video too. It is based on her testimony.

And of course, a visit from the boyfriend during the Christmas holidays. =) He finally met my grandfather and is able to click quite well. =)

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Many people told me that it is too long to be in a relationship with Josh. I am now at the dangerous stage, where breakups can happen anytime. But I don’t feel so lor, neither does Josh. In fact, we felt like we are so close, like we have just started dating each other.  They said 8 years is too long and it is time to get married. They said people will start feeling bored of each other. But, I don’t feel bored of Josh! Cause every time we meet, we discover something new about each other. Hehe. Plus, if get bored, married already ma worst?

And I find it kinda ridiculous to leave a person because I’m bored of him and because it’s been too long. I mean, if no plans of marriage then I understand lah. See he so fat also I want him. You know la girls wan muscular man one. But he loves his muscles so much, he gotta protect it with a huge layer of fat. Aih…..

Anyway…

This Christmas, I learnt about true happiness. Have you found your happiness?

Hurrah to Malaysia’s First Adidas Neo Label Ambassador!

Adidas came out with a new label called Adidas NEO where its designs are colourful, fun, funky and of course style and sporty at the same time. Its label is to target to appeal to all the young fashionable ones. It’s fresh line collection of footwear and apparels with special collections from David Beckham.

Because this label is new in Malaysia, with only 3 stores nationwide – KL, Kota Kinabalu and Kuantan, Adidas organized a competition, where 10 young, happening, fun bloggers were chosen to run compete in being Malaysia’s first Adidas Neo Label Ambassador! I know a few of them personally who were chosen and there were this few ones that were having good fights in the votes!

PhotobucketTo cut the whole long story short, I would like to congratulate my friend, Careen for being Malaysia’s First Adidas Neo Label Ambassador! I can say she did put in ALOT of effort in making this dream alive.
And her efforts are just so natural. I mean, she is a full time student, a leader in church, has lots of part time work – modeling, ushering, hosting, acting, shooting, etc. and you will NEVER hear any complains from her. *salute*. Yet, she still can balance her time between studies, work, God, family, fiance, and friends. Not forgetting, in the midst of preparing for her big day! Those who knows her will agree with me though I’m not so close to her.

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She is one super friendly and she always smiles. ALWAYS! Such joy in her heart despite being tired physically. She definitely enjoys every single bit of her life!

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“After thousands of votes, we have crowned Malaysia’s first adidas NEO ambassador, Careen Tan! She proved herself to be the true embodiment of the NEO identity, and we couldn’t have picked a more eclectic individual to represent the adidas NEO brand!”

It’s true! I mean, she is just a natural talented girl! Dances, sings, acts, models and beautiful!

It was a close fight between Jane. When Jane and Careen were on the Top 2, they were given only 48 hours to get as many people to vote and comment on the video they made. No doubt, Jane had lots of votes coming in, while Careen was behind her. Careen may be new in the blogosphere while Jane has already lots of fans out there. Well, thank God, votes alone were just 20% overall. The judges decisions were 80%. And the judges made the right choice! =D

Not that Jane’s not good. Both have their strength and weaknesses. But based on the final video, I think Careen did a better job in promoting the colourful-ness, fun-ness, style-ness of Adidas NEO. =)

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Careen in the recent City Harvest Church production, Chrome Heart. So cheerful!


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And here are a few videos Careen did that brings her to where she deserves.

TOP RAVING

The video that attracted Ryan Higa (nigahiga) and has almost 43,000 views.
Thumbs up to Careen’s sister, Gladys for the awesome video!


SUPER BASS

Recorded with CHC talented people like Shawn Lee!

THE WINNING VIDEO

Shot in Adidas Neo stores in KL and KK. Thumbs up to Gordon for the great video!

Don’t you think she deserves the winning crown? =D

All the best in your future career, Careen! I can’t wait to see you in more commercials, billboards, adverts and more.

And congratulations to you once again!

Careen’s blog: http://www.careentxy.blogspot.com
Careen’s FB: https://www.facebook.com/careenpage
Careen’s twitter: http://www.twitter.com/careen