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Jul 11

So Many Things I Want

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Work has been hectic. Eh, no. Work shifts has heen hectic.

Did my follow-up with Maril and that time my body battery was below 10%. But hearing her stories and lots of sharing kept me awake as there were so many to learn in those life changing stories. Met up with Daniel too, and as always, likes to bully me. hmmph..

Work wasn’t really that busy. At times I had to wander around to look for things to do at work, that is when there isn’t any assignments for me. So yah, I have not been staying back at work for a few weeks already! In a good way, I get more rest (actually I’ll go jalan-jalan la), and in a bad way, no extra money for over time.

Sorry again – NO PICTURES. Been so lazy to think of what to snap. I don’t want to SS cause my face is full of pimples =( . Not just pimples, but acnes. Sigh. Maybe I should go back in using my Kiehl’s? Or maybe I should go for facial that will cost me a bomb?

My Melbourne trip is in a month’s time and I am more than excited to go on this trip! Though it’ll be just a 5 days trip, Josh and I will make that trip a super fulfilling one! We even plan to go to Sydney for a day trip. Just to see see look look. Do you think it’s a good idea?

I am also thinking of gettng a DSLR. (Yes, if you know me I’ve been wanting to get one since dinosour years ago.) A Canon 550D is good enough already kan? And I am suppose to get my Macbook Pro in August too. Hmm. Should I be generous to myself and spend?

Yesterday, Ps How preached on ”How to Enjoy Studying” and one of the point (actually that’s the only point. The next point will be shared next year. haha) is to be curious. Very true, when there is curiosity, we will try to find out the answer and never get bored. I am curious in so many things but dare not ask because scared people will go, “That also don’t know. Bodohnyer…” And yeah, I never learnt anything. Must change that attitude! Be curious!

Today I was BBM-ing with Raynor and he encouraged me to start drawing again. My drawing always sucks but because I always love graphic designing, I should start practicing from scratch again or else I will never learn a single thing. I use to go on YouTube to learn drawing and I should probably do it again. Cannot hot hot chicken shit (hangat hangat tahi ayam) already.

Do you think I should pursue in graphic designing? Yes, nursing is so far different from graphic designing. But, those who know me well will know why I chose nursing. =) Thought I regreted, but no…I don’t regret being in the nursing profession now. But I still love graphic designing. So, should I?

Jul 03

What A Week!

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Phew. It’s the weekend already. But my weekends only begins on saturday after my shift. Yes, and most of you guys begin your weekend on a friday night. I jealous. Yes. I jealous. Ending my night with Sabrina’s music from her “I Love Acoustic” album. Hit songs such as “Irreplacable“, “You and Me“, “Wake Me Up When September Ends” and “Umbrella” in acoustic. Soothing and relaxing.

This week has been yet a tiring but yet an amazing week.

Must be positive. Must stay positive no matter what happened.

Though there are things that caused me stressed, God still have been great. Well, life is good!

I am thankful for understanding colleagues and managers.
I am thankful for encouraging colleagues.
I am challenged by the management of the department and how it is runned. Many people is in the state of giving up. I’m gonna be strong and trust in the Lord when I am in that state. I pray I won’t be in that state!

A few things happened this week. But it’ll be a lil confusing (we ourselves got confused about the whole incident on how it happened) so I won’t be a story teller for that incident. Will just tell what happened briefly.

An instrument went missing after the case is over. We searched high and low, turned over all the rubbish bags, but failed to search for it. I stayed back to look for it but still failed. Went home and my colleague called me and told me it was found. Well, we do not know whether we were sabotajed, but whatever it is, God has been so good, I managed to sleep well that night!

And something funny happened today.

My duty today is 7am-4pm.
Guess what time I woke up?

LOL. I woke up at 7.27am!

Oh yes.

(Phone vibrates)
In-charge: Hello Tiffanie dear…where are you??
Me: I’M SO SORRY I OVERSLEPTT!!!
In-charge: Oh, you overslept hmm?
Me: SORRY SORRY SORRY!! I come now I come now!
In-charge: It’s ok, it’s ok. No worries dear. Take your time.
Me: I come now! I take cab!
In-charge: okok, you take cab. Don’t rush. Take your time…

And I reached work at 7.58am

And I caused come chaos at work, because I was assigned for a case at 7.30am! Haha. Last minute someone has to take my case and another who start work at 8am so happened to be there early had to start work early…ALL BECAUSE OF ME!

So I ended up doing the next case, Circumcision.
I pakar already. Anyone need circumcision?

Then, another funny thing happened. I scrubbed for a case, “Cystoscopy and Change of Double J-Stent” (A double J-Stent is a stent placed in the ureter to prevent or treat obstruction of the urine flow from the kidney).
After the case, the double J-stents that were removed were placed in a bottle to return to the patient. The surgeon was holding it as he wanted to have a look at it. Then, the team were about to transfer the patient from the operating table to the trolley. Being helpful, he placed down the bottle somewhere and helped to transfer the patient. The next thing we all know, the bottle is missing!
We searched high and low up and down side to side turned over the rubbish bags and we still couldn’t look for it!
To cut the whole story short, my colleague was shocked to find it in her pocket! Yes, how it ended in her pocket, we all have no idea! Maybe the surgeon and her forgotten that the bottle was handed over to her and she don’t even know what she took from the surgeon.
When it was found, instead of being scolded, there was laughter. Because it was funny.

Not to forget, I brought my friends to church today for a session with Dr AR Bernard’s! I’m glad they enjoyed the message. At the same time, I have received so much from tonight’s message. If you’re in Singapore, come down to Heart of God Church this Sunday (4/7/10) at 3pm for another great session with Dr AR Bernard!

If you’re in KL, head to City Harvest KL on 6/7 & 7/7 (Tuesday and Wednesday) at 8pm to hear from this great man of God! Honestly, you will NOT regret!

People who are successful did not just did things extraordinarily but did the original things extraordinarily well! – Dr AR Bernard

Good night. =)

Jun 30

Pressure vs Challenge

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I know of friends who starve themselves to buy something they WANT. *note: not NEED*
Some starve themselves to buy gifts for their boyfriend/girlfriend.
When you want to give something to your loved one, you give your best kan? So pressured lor! Just for that ONE THING!

I can remember one pastor said this during offering challenge.
“If a $11 movie ticket is nothing, then you should give more than $11 to the church!” So true. Why $11 to give to church is so hard, but for a movie it’s like nothing?

We always give to the one we love our best. Remember, God is our FIRST love. So He deserves the very best!

Many of you would have heard about City Harvest in Singapore. Many people have been saying CHC puts pressure on the members to give and start mocking the church. Saying the money all goes into Pastor’s pocket yadayadayada…
Even if that happens, all I know is I have given to God. Others, it’s between the person involved and God. I have no right say much, but to continue to encourage the church and most importantly, FORGIVE! We are all not perfect mar…correct? We are not God, so we have no right to judge.

Anyway, let’s not talk about CHC alone, but in general.

In my own personal opinion, it’s all about faith. When you’re trusting and believing in God, the Satan will do whatever he can to destroy your faith. Many many problems will happen, but it is whether you hold on to your faith! Trust me, no..trust God…your reward is in Heaven!

How about being pressured? When Pastor challenges us to give, then hearing testimonies on people selling their house and downgrading to giving their 1 yr salary to the house of God, I NEVER take it as being pressured, but as a challenge of faith. Those people have taken a step of faith and trust in the Lord. Everytime I want to give, the first thing I have in my heart is,
“No money how to eat? But I wanna buy this, buy that…etc etc”
With that kind of doubt in me, faith? NONE!
And those people who gave almost everything the have are all doing very well even after such sacrifice. None of them are starving and begging by the roadside for food.

Because the news on CHC flying around in Singapore, I have heard lots of discussion among people about “The church pressures the people to give!”
I have yet to hear the word “challenged”. I realize the word “pressured” is so negative. But notice this, when you use “challenged”, you feel encouraged and would go an extra mile. It’s like a race with lots of obstacles!

Read 2 Corinthians 9:7 (NKJV)

7 So let each one give as he purposes in his heart, not grudgingly or of necessity; for God loves a cheerful giver.

“..as he purposes in his heart…”
Why do you give?
Definitely when we give there must be a reason. Just like when you give a gift to a friend, there must be a reason for giving…her birthday, a reward, etc.
You do not give an offering to God for the sake of giving. When you know the reason to give, then you know how to decide on how much to give.
Testimonies are examples of blessings from Heaven. Doesn’t mean people have given $20,000 means you have to give that amount too! Give according to your ability, give as an offering of love to God.

In the NLT version, from the same verse, it says

7 You must each decide in your heart how much to give. And don’t give reluctantly or in response to pressure. “For God loves a person who gives cheerfully.”

“Don’t give reluctantly or in response to pressure”
Of course when we are forced to give, we do not feel happy and probably would try to avoid being at the position of being forced and pressured again. God clearly states that He wants us to give cheerfully. Everytime before making a commitment, I pray. If you’re not sure how much to give, pray! When God shows you a figure and it gives you a heart attack, TRUST IN GOD! It is no longer between you and the pastor/minister/speaker. It is now between you and God! I bet you will not say, “God pressured me to give……..” but say

“GOD CHALLENGED ME TO GIVE!!”

Then, your faith builds. You began to learn to rely on God than your own ability.

Well, that’s not the end. God has also promised that He will take care of us.

2 Corinthians 9:8 (NKJV)
8 And God is able to make all grace abound toward you, that you, always having all sufficiency in all things, may have an abundance for every good work.

“Grace is God’s empowerment that gives us the ability to go beyond our natural ability” - John Bevere

Wow! The power of God’s grace!
That means what you think is impossible will be made possible!

No more:
“God will understand the purpose I do not give. I have a family to take care of.”
“How can God make His people give if His people do not have enough for themselves? Afterall, He is God. He don’t need the money.”
“Good for them, they all get all the blessings, doesn’t mean I will get them because I am not as rich as them.”

When we live by faith, we live in God’s grace!

So, are you pressured or challenged?

C’mon! Be challenged!

May 31

CGI-AC 2010

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The first Asia Conference was 2 years back. I did not get to go due to classes. This year, no matter what I sei sei must go. Plus, I am now working in Singapore, it is easier for me!

This time, it is not just Asia Conference, but the priviledge to combine with Church Growth International (CGI), founded by Dr Yonggi Cho, the senior pastor of the Yoido Full Gospel Church, Seoul, which is also the largest church in the world with a strong 850,000 members. The main speakers of the conference are all members of CGI, all with the largest members in their respective countries.

We have international preachers such as Phil Pringle, A.R Bernard, Reinhard Bonnke, Lee Young-Hoon, Tan Sri Datuk Prince Guneratnam, John Avanzini, Steve Munsey, Mark Conner, Kim Sung Hae (Dr Yonggi Cho’s wife), Sidney Mohede, Rev Kevin Loo, Robb Thompson, and many more. Of course local speakers were there too, one of them is my pastor, Ps Seow How.

OK, enough of introduction.

So, everyday, we (my sister and i) wakes up at 5am and leaves home by 6am to queue up. The conference starts at 9am but the queue is already very very very very very long at 7am. There are people who come as early as 5.30am to queue.

Over 20,000 delegates (note: it’s delegates. Not yet count in CHC singapore members yet) from over 2,000 churches from 70 nations.

The only time I did not need to queue was on Thursday night and the whole Friday. Had the opportunity to sit at the Priority Seats. =)

If we don’t queue up early, we may not be able to go into the main auditorium but have to be in the overflow auditorium. Don’t be surprised, there are 2 overflow auditorium and both can seat almost the same amount of people as the main auditorium. One day Pastor Kong Hee have to rent the Singapore stadium liao.

During the whole time at the conference, I spend most of my time with my sister and the CHCKL peeps. It was a very good catch up time with them and I really had fun.

CGI-AC 2010 is a life changing conference. Opened up my eyes and hearts to so many perspective of Christianity, being an example to the world, living as the image of God, great offering chanllenges, and many testimonies after testimonies on leading people to Christ. Even the grand imam from Pakistan came over. Dr Yonggi Cho calls him, “My muslim brother.”

All speakers are so annointed and wows the crowd with such powerful message. Definitely a life changing conference! This is probably the first conference that have captivated me so so deeply, I now hunger for God so much.

“We always pray for God’s presence to be with us. Have you forgotten God is always with us? Have you forgotten God never left us?” – Reinhard Bonnke

I have learnt a lot. Making me eager to lift myself to a whole new level in serving God and pursuing my dream. I am gonna do so. You’ll see! =D I wish I could blog about everything! You can read all about the speakers and their message on http://www.citynews.sg/index.php/category/asiaconference .

For now, more pictures

at Food Expo. We were all so excited to see so many good food. Janice and I bought so many food and end up struggle to finish them all cause too full liao lol. The Durian Pancake was the best lah.

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New friends made, lots of great fun. I was once their age. Now one of them (not in picture) says Jan and I are 3o years old. We look so old meh? And I’m sure you can spot sleepy but happy faces. Exhausted but excited!

KC and I. Always fetch me to and from church when I was in CHCKL. I remembered when I had to help in park his kancil in Sunway Pyramid when he had to rush to serve in Emerge KL 2008. I struggled ok…his kancil is just…different!

Ian and I. My dear Chia Huey’s husband.

gah, picture quality got so bad after editing and resizing. I need a better computer and photoshop!

anyway, for official pictures which are much better, go to http://www.asiaconference.org.sg/2010/media_gallery.php

Are you going for Asia Conference 2012??

Apr 14

He Would Have Just Passed Us By.

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We face problems in life. Whether it is at school or work or relationships. Sometimes we blame it onto God for all these that has happen. We human beings, tend to rely on our own strength in whatever we do. When problem comes, we still try to do whatever we can do on our own ability, forgetting God who can give us the power to overcome mountains in life.

Sometimes when we lose faith, lose hope, we tend to think that God is far far away. As for me, I always thought so. Where is God when I need Him most? But the thing is, I often neglet Him and not cry out to Him for strength when I am weak. When I complaint about how miserable my life is to my sister and start saying “God does not answer my prayers.” She replied, “Now you’re blaming God!”

Last weekend, Ps John Bevere quoted a verse.

“48 Then He saw them straining at rowing, for the wind was against them. Now about the fourth watch of the night He came to them walking on the sea, and would have passed them by. 49 And they saw Him walking on the sea, they supposed it was a ghost, and cried out; 50 for they all saw Him and were troubled. But immediately He talked with them, and said to them, “Be of good cheer! It is I; do not be afraid.”
[Mark 6:48-50]

This is part of the story on Jesus walking on the water. Jesus sent His disciples onto the boat and when evening came, His disciples had problem rowing the boat ast he wind was against them. Jesus went to them, by walking on the water. His disciples saw Him, thinking it was a ghost. They cried out as they were scared. IF they did not see Him and cried out, Jesus would have passed them by.

Just like in life, when problems come, Jesus sees it. God sees it. And when we do not cry out to Him, He would have just passed us by.

I cried out to God, with all my heart on the day after I BBM-ed my sister on all that is troubling me inside. I cried out to Him, “Where are You, O Lord…where are You? I don’t feel You anymore, I don’t know how to feel You anymore…I don’t know how to hear from You anymore..” Then I went to bed peacefully and woke up with swollen eyes. Haha. But I felt refreshed.

I still doubt that it was God.

That weekend, Ps John Bevere preached over in church on God’s Grace. And that was one of the verse that kept me thinking about God and me. He is there….but I just didn’t bother to look out for Him. Then and there, God was speaking to me through Pastor.

Though I know God is always watching over my life, God’s Word is still the best solution for answers to all my problems in life.

I left church having the joy of the Lord. God is indeed real. So real in my life that I feel so hurt that I couldn’t feel His touch. That is why Christianity is a Relationship with God…not a religion.