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Worry… Not.

I have just arrived home from my short trip back to KL. It was a random and last minute trip, to satisfy my cravings for food and also simply because I miss my boyfriend. Other than that I also catched up with Kel Li and Nigel. It as a good night!

Anyway, the post is more about myself. So here it goes.

I didn’t get to attend City Harvest on Sunday morning because I didn’t have transport. Usually if my sister have to serve in church on Sunday morning, I will send her to church at 7am, drive home, get ready for church and drive back for service at 10am. However, she had to leave home at 6.30am and had to fetch her friend. So I decided to sleep in and attend Kingdom City at 5pm with Pao, who overnight at my place.

Invited Josh along for service and I must say, there must be a reason why I was willing to spend so much on my flight ticket just this trip back to KL. And there also must be a reason why I felt so tired and wanting to sleep in and feel bad and go to other church that day.

The moment I stepped into Kingdom City at Luther Centre, I felt such strong presence of God. It’s been awhile since I really felt His presence. I was ministered at the point of worship already. Fast forward, Pastor Jemima spoke about a very simple message on “Building a Foundation that Lasts”. It was so simple, but it was as if she was telling me directly, “hey, this is for you!”

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You can listen to the sermon online by clicking here.

Honestly, I am a person who wants to achieve many. I wanna learn so much until sometimes people calls me a superwoman or over ambitious because I am doing so much, just to find achievement. However, when something disappoints me, I start crushing down and being negative. The best person who knows all these is my boyfriend and my sister. I can get really really really negative about everything around me and about myself and start blaming the people who are close to me for everything (i’m sorry….. 🙁 ). Other than that, I worry for every single thing on planet earth. Hence, why I try to work so hard to find enough money so I could live a comfortable life. And with all these negativity, I turned away from God.

After service, Josh told me something random.

You should be like your brother you know…
Why should I?” I asked.
Josh spoke something that made me realized one thing that I have never thought before, “I have not seen your brother getting angry. He is a person who doesn’t worry about anything. I always see him so happy despite so many failures in his life. Yet, he doesn’t give up, he still find ways to work things out.”

I remember arguing with my brother and stated all my thoughts to him. I remember him telling me, “Why worry? God will provide!
“Yes, God will provide! But with your kind of carefree attitude, not doing what you are supposed to do, playing computer games all the time, failing your studies, how do you think it will happened?“, I argued back.
O you little faith“.
The argument went on and I got so annoyed, I told him I was very upset and hurt for not being appreciated. He apologized.

I got more annoyed when I have do to so much and still don’t feel any achievement, but my brother doesn’t have to do anything but still receive so much and I always thought why  #theworldissounfair

But I got to know something this weekend. My sister shared with me something that got me thinking back on that argument I had with my brother some time ago, and that statement Josh said to me. Despite all the failures that made us all upset and embarassed most of the time, he has been SO BLESSED. I don’t wanna reveal anything yet until all is confirmed (no, he is not getting married yet lol). He is gonna be what he said of before and no one could think this will ever happen.

He trusted God.
He cast all his worries to God.
He allowed God to take control of His life.
He is ALWAYS HAPPY despite ALL the scoldings.
He is also famous…. everybody knows Abishua Tan. hahahaha

“Do not limit God”, Josh reminded me after church service.

Basically, the topic throughout my whole weekend is about being positive, being happy and worry less. Then, Josh forwarded me a quote via Whatsapp,

“Science has shown that negative emotions like stress can harm performance and cause negative side effects to the human body. Likewise, positive emotions like joy have huge impact on sleep, performance, health and recovery”.

Very true. I always fell sick, have all kinds of diseases and I visit the doctor so often like I go shopping in shopping malls.

Throughout my trip back, I was reading John Green’s “The Fault In Our Stars”. The character in this book, Hazel and Augustus both have cancer. But from the beginning to the end of the book, Hazel and Augustus lived their life to the fullest despite Hazel having to be on oxygen all the time.

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They never worry. They never blamed anyone for what they are going through. Kept me reflecting about my life. I always think it sucks, but there are other people’s life that is suckier.

A must read. This is probably one of the first time that I finished reading a book in less than a week. #achievementunlocked hahaha. Can’t wait to watch the movie though.

Learning to love and appreciate myself, my life, the people around me, my family, my leaders, my church and my beloved boyfriend. I’m glad my family and my boyfriend has been so patient on me and has yet to give up on the oh so negative daughter/sister/girlfriend.

A short trip but yet a fulfilling, fruitful and amazing one. I have found that peace once again. Learning to cast all my burdens unto Him.

If God gives such attention to the appearance of wildflowers—most of which are never even seen—don’t you think he’ll attend to you, take pride in you, do his best for you? What I’m trying to do here is to get you to relax, to not be so preoccupied with getting, so you can respond to God’s giving. People who don’t know God and the way he works fuss over these things, but you know both God and how he works. Steep your life in God-reality, God-initiative, God-provisions. Don’t worry about missing out. You’ll find all your everyday human concerns will be met. Give your entire attention to what God is doing right now, and don’t get worked up about what may or may not happen tomorrow. God will help you deal with whatever hard things come up when the time comes. (Matt 6:30-34) The Message.

 

To a Promising and Fruitful Year Ahead!

It’s been 3.5 years since I started working in Singapore. This 3.5 years has been tough as I juggled a lot on whether to give up working. I almost paid up my bond, but somehow I decided to stay.

I took up the Advanced Diploma in Perioperative Nursing in 2011 followed by my Degree in Nursing last July 2012. I have 2 more semesters until I complete my Degree and I plan to fly to Perth to graduate so I can get my certificate earlier as the graduation in Singapore is only in October next year. By getting my certificate earlier, I will be able to get my allowances earlier too. It is also an excuse so I can go holiday in Perth hihihihi.

Currently working about 9 hours a day makes me very tired physically. I don’t know is it because there isn’t much to do or is it just me getting older each day. I often get migraine and one fine day I was seeking treatment at another panel clinic and the doctor was really doing his job investigating the cause of my migraine. He suspected stress and suggested me to exercise. I am a person who hates exercising, so I gave him alasan I busy at work.

Finally, I decided to take up Pilates at Upside Motion.

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The reason why I chose Upside Motion is because I actually wanted to take up the Xtend Barre classes but was told that I should have some experience in Pilates Mat first to learn on how to work on my muscles the right way. So I chose the Pilates private lesson that cost me a bomb, but it is worth it.

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Pilates Reformers
photo source: Upside Motion

Xtend Barre is a dance and pilates amplified workout. The workout of some ballet moves plus pilates attracts me because I wanted to take up ballet class and pilates at the same time but knowing the existence of Xtend Barre, my heart rejoiced! Xtend Barre is relatively new and there are only 2 studios in Singapore that offers this workout. I am doing a lilll Xtend Barre workout in my private class and I hope to be able to join the group classes soon. It’s tough and I salute all ballet dancers out there!

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photo source: Xtend Barre

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My beautiful instructor, Saniya doing her th’ng!

I think Saniya is super awesome! She is the instructor for Pilates, Xtend Barre and Yoga!

My target for this year is to tone up my muscles and wave bye bye to flabby tummy, hamstrings and triceps!

Other than juggling with work and studies and Pilates, I also took up a Diploma in Professional Makeup and Hairstyling Artistry. Call me crazy but I just want to make use of all the time I have. The makeup course is rather therapeutic than stress as the makeup school / studio is small and homely. I’ve always admire makeup artistry and how makeup can transform a person from looking like A to B. Its amazing! Who knows, in years to come, I can maybe use this new skills and work on my own flexible timing *wink*.

Well, I have also been admiring designs but since being in the nursing profession, I don’t have the time to sit down in front of my computer for hours doing editing or learning new editing / designing skills. I almost wanted to take part time graphic designing course but knowing graphic designing course assignments are a killer and it’s hard to juggle between work, degree and the those design assignments.

One fine day, I decided to look around for professional makeup classes and somehow stumbled upon a beautiful makeup studio site with awesome portfolio which happened that both makeup artists graduated from a school called The Makeup Room.

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I have not heard about about that school (plus it doesn’t even sound like a school) and decided to google more about it. There isn’t much results on the course offered by TMUR and at that time, they were upgrading their website.

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TMUR Makeup Artists

Nevertheless, there are lots of search results regarding the 2 senior makeup artist who are well known in Singapore and overseas and does lots of major assignments in theater, fashion shows, magazine shoots, bridal, etc.

I decided to pay the studio and when I arrived, I felt like I was visiting someone’s house. It’s small and cosy! I also viewed their portfolios and their works are awesome! I was also surprised to see my aunty and uncle’s wedding photograph in one of their portfolio! Apparently they were one of the first customer of one of the senior makeup artist and she is very grateful for the support that led her to where she is today. =)

Without thinking much, I signed up for the course and now I am in the 3rd month of the course. So far so good! Getting tougher each class and I still suck in hairstyling! Oh, for the hairstyling part, we are taught by Lai, who has many years experience in hairstyling and works with top fashion agencies in Singapore, Europe, Japan, etc!

So blessed and honoured to be trained by Singapore’s best!

And oh, I was surprised when I met my classmates too. I was expecting those who come are those who are school leavers or those who will put on heavy makeups and all but no! They are all professionals like me! :’)

After attending the makeup classes, I finally understand that makeup is truly an ART.

I’m getting hooked with all these new found love! Pilates and Makeup Artistry. <3
Xtend Barre – akan datang!

With all these, I have been spending a lot (really pokai every month) and with upcoming a surprise that I will reveal soon once it is ready to be revealed (no no, not getting married yet!).

2013 – Tough but it will be PROMISING and FRUITFUL!

How to be a blogger?

“Welcome back Tiffanie! Finally you are back after abandoning your blog for a year!”

Yes, it’s been almost a year since I last posted. Blame it on work and uni, I do not have much time and inspirations to blog anymore. I may not have many readers but I thought I should continue this blog thing and make some money haha.

Honestly, I don’t know what to write. And I do not have the time to look pretty and dress pretty and show off on my blog. Maybe when I have a nice figure (with the help of my new addiction – Pilates!) and able to fit in clothings without showing my spare tires, then I will. Self conscious alert! Haha.

To ponder: So what makes you a blogger? I have quite a number of blogger friends (and my bf is also a blogger) and I have met some celebrity bloggers too (thanks to the famous bf). I may not be a blogger (my definition of a blogger is when you have that high traffic and people recognises you as one), but I can still tell you how to be a FEMALE blogger!

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Why not? Haha.

Ok… here is what I think that makes you a blogger. A female blogger.

1. You must have the looks.
Ok, maybe not 100% right on this but your looks must be attractive enough to make guys and GIRLS admire your looks or maybe fall in love with you or maybe hate you for being too pretty or too ugly. You may not have the looks but you can photoshop your eyes, nose, lips, face, boobs, etc to look good on internet and amaze the world but be prepared to receive lots of criticism because you don’t look like how you suppose to look in real life.

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If your photoshop skill fails, maybe you should learn to pick up and practice on it because trust me, people prefer reading blogs with quality content and photos with graphic editings. If you are not the computer savvy kind, mayb you can pick up some make up skills and transform your self

from this

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to

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this!

How amazing makeup can be! <3

2. You must have good sense of fashion and BASIC makeup skills.
You don’t need that super awesome skills yet to transform your whole look like the picture above. Baby steps! Start simple first to just look good (cover up your pimples, dark circles, dullness, etc). Maybe just having that natural look IS you. Find and discover what fits you.
Many girls out there look for inspiration on how to improve their looks and often look out for blogs. I believe every girls will look at blogs and YouTube to pick up these skills. So you must look good at least and dress up to the latest trends or maybe create your own style to attract readers. Above all these, beauty is still your confidence. Show confidence in your pictures, and that’s the secret to attraction and beauty! When you learn to master all these, it will be very natural on you and it will be part of you that you cannot live without. HAHA.

You know, some guys may stalk your blog and some may comment that they prefer simple girls (simple fashion and no makeup). I have seen some bloggers are brave to look unglamorous to show their “real look” but I am sure some girls feel very insecure leaving the house without makeup. Some will even get panicked when they couldn’t find their usual routine to make themselves pretty. ie. contact lens. I have seen patients that put on makeup before going in for surgery and at the end of the surgery, their fake lashes came off and the doctor gets panicked…..

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………because they don’t know how to fix it back. haha.

For me, I will get panicked when i cannot find trusty Shu Uemura my brow pencil.

3. You must be a camwhore / selfie expert.
It’s a girls thing but I see many guys doing this as well. Wherever you go (even in the toilet), go ahead and camwhore and post up pictures on your #ootd or #fotd or #potd. You need other social media platform such as Facebook, Instagram, Twitter to post them up! You can use these platforms to promote yourself too.

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oh hi. Just promoting myself.

4. Whenever you see a camera, pose!
All those model poses, you know? If you can’t pose, just be au naturale. Good enough! Also good for #ootd posts. Some people just love the camera. And you should also develop this new addiction. Just pose! Or maybe plan some photoshoots and have some good quality pictures to be posted up on your blog. Get a friend who is kind to snap your pictures for free. Get a friend who has boleh tahan punya photography skills at least. You wouldn’t want to ruin the whole photoshoot with the wrong angles and poor management of camera settings that make you look unpleasantly fat or ugly. Then, with your good fashion taste and make up and the confidence in you, you will have many followers on your blog soon, then soon your fan-ci!

5. Join a blogging community / agency such as Nuffnang/Advertlets/GushAds.
This is where you get to meet other bloggers, monitor your blog statistics and earn some money. When your blog traffic hits a certain number and have a consistency in maintaining that traffic, you have high chance to be given assignments on reviewing products and events. You may also get free movie or event passes and meet all those bloggers you have been following and inspired by.

6. Socialize.
It’s a good thing to mix around and making new friends! But to be a blogger, try attending events where you will meet other bloggers too. You must be known to your friends as “you super on one!” where you are always at events, concerts, parties, etc. with other bloggers. You need to mix in with the right people (because they will recommend you, post you on their blogs or other social sites).

I have been to events but I don’t really mix around as I am not really into blogging about the events or to gain popularity. But of course, I have met some people and some of them are really famous bloggers. Here are a few pictures of events I have attended with the bf. I can say he is well known because people on his left, right, up and down also he knows.

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Johnnie Walker The Black Circuit 2011
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NAPBAS 2011
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with Audrey of fourfeetnine.com at NAPBAS 2011
 

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with Nic Gan, Kenny Sia, Joyce Wong and the bf at NAPBAS 2011
 

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Johnnie Walker 2012

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Chin Kent’s wedding.

Haha. Not any media event but I like this picture so I wanna post it up. =P

7. Review as much products as you can.
Many people tend to search for reviews on certain products, movies, albums, institutions, clothings, etc. Though you are not paid for the reviews, just go ahead and do your reviews! You need to invest in getting more traffic to your blogs and slowly have agencies/companies recognising your capabilities in advertising their products. One of my friend who enjoys blogging because of her readers enjoys doing reviews on products she used. I believe one day she will be one of the top blogger too. Do visit Jo-Ann’s blog at joannwithadash.blogspot.sg and I believe you will get hooked too because of her vainity yet humble blog that is slowly gaining popularity. =)

8. Blog with responsibility!
Your blog is viewed by the world (depending on your content). Even my low profile blog is being viewed all over the world for this one post I posted 2 years ago.

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The content of your blog must be good and attractive that keep readers and Google addicts coming back to your blog. Blog about how beautiful you are. Blog about your travel to India. Blog about how you sleep. Blog about how much you love your dog. Just blog! But blog responsibly!

Yes, it is your blog. You can blog about anything you want. You can whine and complain all you want. But as a blogger, you are responsible for all the post you post up. You are responsible for the words you write as it reflects your attitude. You may be famous already and you wouldn’t care at all. But you wouldn’t like if others talk bad about you on blogposts too, right? Sometimes I wonder, is this call “blogging abuse” which is similar to “verbal abuse”. To be an influential blogger, stay humble, accept criticism and grow in your passion.

 

So far I can only think of these few. But I am sure there are more than this that makes you a blogger.

I also don’t know why am I writing about this and I don’t know when will I be blogging again.

Need to start on my assignment soon!

(wow…close to 1500 words. That is equivalent to the word count my analytical project that I will take a couple of days to complete!)

My Christmas – Happiness

My Christmas was simple.

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Headed to church for Christmas service in the afternoon. Heard many amazing testimonies.
Pastor preached about happiness. There are 3 level of happiness.

1. Happy
2. Happier
3. Happiest

Nah, just kidding.

The first is Pleasure. Don’t deny that money does give you happiness. Shopping does give us happiness. Owning a brand new gadget, car, clothes, bags does give us happiness. But these happiness is only temporary. Agree?

The second one is Passion. We all have passion. Passion for blogging. Passion for designing. Passion for nursing. And these passion gives us happiness to an extend. We love working at what we are passionate for. True? You can put it in your hobbies too. The happiness level is longer than pleasure. When you have passion for something, it gives you pleasure. So it goes like this. I once have lotsa passion in cycling. Now, I don’t cycle anymore. I found a new passion. Which is sleeping. HAHA! That cycling passion has fade off.

And the last one is Purpose. Whatever we do, when we found the purpose in what we wanna do, the happiness is long lasting. Therefore, when we know the purpose, we will have the passion, and it gives us pleasure. So instead of starting off with pleasure, why not start off with having a purpose?

What is your purpose living in this world? We can see many unhappy people around because mainly they do not know the main purpose of life. So true, it kept me to ponder. I have a few people asked before, few years ago. And quite often, their answers will be, “To enjoy lor. Die already cannot enjoy ma.”

Ya lah. Enjoy must be happy right? But why so much unhappiness? The enjoyment is just temporary.

So ask yourself. What is your purpose in life? Is life just how you are living? Or is there more than just that?

Rachel gave one great awesome testimony that had a great link to the levels of happiness. Her story was just like any other person who thinks life is just doing what you wanna do, thinking life was just like how you and me live everyday. Whatever that gives her pleasure still led her to so much sadness and she just didn’t know why despite having so much pleasure in shopping and spending all of her savings off. Finally, she found her purpose in life, which is in God. She found God in her lowest moment of her life when she was not even a believer yet. And now, her life is changed, into a happier person, a person full of dreams and vision, and knowing her purpose in life.

She owns a blogshop, that was then, just an ordinary blogshop with no purpose, no vision. Now, she designs her own label and best of all, have a story behind every design. All are inspiring and I love reading them. Do drop by http://thankgodformyspringfling.tumblr.com/ for her writings and of course her blogshop!

Do watch this video too. It is based on her testimony.

And of course, a visit from the boyfriend during the Christmas holidays. =) He finally met my grandfather and is able to click quite well. =)

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Many people told me that it is too long to be in a relationship with Josh. I am now at the dangerous stage, where breakups can happen anytime. But I don’t feel so lor, neither does Josh. In fact, we felt like we are so close, like we have just started dating each other.  They said 8 years is too long and it is time to get married. They said people will start feeling bored of each other. But, I don’t feel bored of Josh! Cause every time we meet, we discover something new about each other. Hehe. Plus, if get bored, married already ma worst?

And I find it kinda ridiculous to leave a person because I’m bored of him and because it’s been too long. I mean, if no plans of marriage then I understand lah. See he so fat also I want him. You know la girls wan muscular man one. But he loves his muscles so much, he gotta protect it with a huge layer of fat. Aih…..

Anyway…

This Christmas, I learnt about true happiness. Have you found your happiness?