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Worry… Not.

I have just arrived home from my short trip back to KL. It was a random and last minute trip, to satisfy my cravings for food and also simply because I miss my boyfriend. Other than that I also catched up with Kel Li and Nigel. It as a good night!

Anyway, the post is more about myself. So here it goes.

I didn’t get to attend City Harvest on Sunday morning because I didn’t have transport. Usually if my sister have to serve in church on Sunday morning, I will send her to church at 7am, drive home, get ready for church and drive back for service at 10am. However, she had to leave home at 6.30am and had to fetch her friend. So I decided to sleep in and attend Kingdom City at 5pm with Pao, who overnight at my place.

Invited Josh along for service and I must say, there must be a reason why I was willing to spend so much on my flight ticket just this trip back to KL. And there also must be a reason why I felt so tired and wanting to sleep in and feel bad and go to other church that day.

The moment I stepped into Kingdom City at Luther Centre, I felt such strong presence of God. It’s been awhile since I really felt His presence. I was ministered at the point of worship already. Fast forward, Pastor Jemima spoke about a very simple message on “Building a Foundation that Lasts”. It was so simple, but it was as if she was telling me directly, “hey, this is for you!”

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You can listen to the sermon online by clicking here.

Honestly, I am a person who wants to achieve many. I wanna learn so much until sometimes people calls me a superwoman or over ambitious because I am doing so much, just to find achievement. However, when something disappoints me, I start crushing down and being negative. The best person who knows all these is my boyfriend and my sister. I can get really really really negative about everything around me and about myself and start blaming the people who are close to me for everything (i’m sorry….. 🙁 ). Other than that, I worry for every single thing on planet earth. Hence, why I try to work so hard to find enough money so I could live a comfortable life. And with all these negativity, I turned away from God.

After service, Josh told me something random.

You should be like your brother you know…
Why should I?” I asked.
Josh spoke something that made me realized one thing that I have never thought before, “I have not seen your brother getting angry. He is a person who doesn’t worry about anything. I always see him so happy despite so many failures in his life. Yet, he doesn’t give up, he still find ways to work things out.”

I remember arguing with my brother and stated all my thoughts to him. I remember him telling me, “Why worry? God will provide!
“Yes, God will provide! But with your kind of carefree attitude, not doing what you are supposed to do, playing computer games all the time, failing your studies, how do you think it will happened?“, I argued back.
O you little faith“.
The argument went on and I got so annoyed, I told him I was very upset and hurt for not being appreciated. He apologized.

I got more annoyed when I have do to so much and still don’t feel any achievement, but my brother doesn’t have to do anything but still receive so much and I always thought why  #theworldissounfair

But I got to know something this weekend. My sister shared with me something that got me thinking back on that argument I had with my brother some time ago, and that statement Josh said to me. Despite all the failures that made us all upset and embarassed most of the time, he has been SO BLESSED. I don’t wanna reveal anything yet until all is confirmed (no, he is not getting married yet lol). He is gonna be what he said of before and no one could think this will ever happen.

He trusted God.
He cast all his worries to God.
He allowed God to take control of His life.
He is ALWAYS HAPPY despite ALL the scoldings.
He is also famous…. everybody knows Abishua Tan. hahahaha

“Do not limit God”, Josh reminded me after church service.

Basically, the topic throughout my whole weekend is about being positive, being happy and worry less. Then, Josh forwarded me a quote via Whatsapp,

“Science has shown that negative emotions like stress can harm performance and cause negative side effects to the human body. Likewise, positive emotions like joy have huge impact on sleep, performance, health and recovery”.

Very true. I always fell sick, have all kinds of diseases and I visit the doctor so often like I go shopping in shopping malls.

Throughout my trip back, I was reading John Green’s “The Fault In Our Stars”. The character in this book, Hazel and Augustus both have cancer. But from the beginning to the end of the book, Hazel and Augustus lived their life to the fullest despite Hazel having to be on oxygen all the time.

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They never worry. They never blamed anyone for what they are going through. Kept me reflecting about my life. I always think it sucks, but there are other people’s life that is suckier.

A must read. This is probably one of the first time that I finished reading a book in less than a week. #achievementunlocked hahaha. Can’t wait to watch the movie though.

Learning to love and appreciate myself, my life, the people around me, my family, my leaders, my church and my beloved boyfriend. I’m glad my family and my boyfriend has been so patient on me and has yet to give up on the oh so negative daughter/sister/girlfriend.

A short trip but yet a fulfilling, fruitful and amazing one. I have found that peace once again. Learning to cast all my burdens unto Him.

If God gives such attention to the appearance of wildflowers—most of which are never even seen—don’t you think he’ll attend to you, take pride in you, do his best for you? What I’m trying to do here is to get you to relax, to not be so preoccupied with getting, so you can respond to God’s giving. People who don’t know God and the way he works fuss over these things, but you know both God and how he works. Steep your life in God-reality, God-initiative, God-provisions. Don’t worry about missing out. You’ll find all your everyday human concerns will be met. Give your entire attention to what God is doing right now, and don’t get worked up about what may or may not happen tomorrow. God will help you deal with whatever hard things come up when the time comes. (Matt 6:30-34) The Message.


Touched by New Friends I made..

These are friends from Heart of God Church, Singapore.
I’ve only been there twice and they have already make me feel that I’m part of them. =)


They actually send a DVD to my Singapore address and I was surprised to see this video! I had to go to my friend’s place to watch it because a netbook doesn’t have DVD drive (That is why I need a new computer!).

Throughout my whole life, I never felt so touch before, especially something friends have done for me. They are the first to make me feel so touched and belong.

I mean, I barely know them! But they are like good buddies with me already.

Of course, I do hope to make more new friends, friends like them. <3

It’s Great To Be Home <3

How’s Singapore? Singapore is very well, but makes me very tired everyday.

I probably enjoy walking around Singapore. In Malaysia, I’ll be dead d.


Along Red Dot Museum


Theater syiok sendiri with one of the Nurse Manager

Met great people in Singapore too, of course.

During my departure back to KL, Daniel, Marilyn and Jia Yan (if i’m not mistaken) came by to pass me this card.


it’s from the cg members (not all la cause the cg has like 50 ppl?). Very sweet of them to write me a card, it’s as if i’m going off for a very very long time! I was speechless when Daniel told me he’s coming over. Like wow…..lol!

It was suppose to be a surprise though. But because Danee, PS and I tak sabar want to go in the Departure hall, the surprise have to be revealed. heheheh..

So I landed onto Malaysia ground at 11.30pm.

Josh was waiting for me at the Arrival Gate. And all of a sudden Andy appeared. Terkejut sial aku.

Of course the first place to go is to CHCKL, because its a Sunday ma so I go la.

It’s great meeting up my cg members again. =) Manoj said I look more refreshed than last time. heheeh…cause happy ma come back KL..so ma refreshed lor.

After service, Chia Huey, Jan and I went to Pyramid to hang out and catch up again! Enjoyed their company and they shopped, i did not. Bag almost 20kg d…if i shop then habis lah….

winter warmers

Jan and I at Winter Warmers Coffee and Tea House

Met up with Josh at KL Sentral and off we go for dinner. Longing for good food, Josh brought me to Jalan Alor.

Walked all the way to the end of Jalan Alor. This restaurant we went to is so big, 5 shoplots combined together.

We ordered, La la pedas, Asam Fish, Kangkung Belacan, Chicken Wings….
Then the boss asked, “Wah all pedas wan…you all like huh?”

LOL! We didn’t know we ordered all spicy food – expect the chicken wings la…But it’s ok…cause they all look tempting…

And the amount of food we ordered is so much for 2 people. I only ate 1/4 bowl of rice because I makan all the dishes. If makan finish the rice then I think Josh need to borrow people’s stomach d.

Jalan Alor

Asam Fish

This Asam Fish is damn delicious! Never tasted such yummy Asam Fish before lorrrr……

The next day, which is Monday, I slept the whole day. Just felt so tired and since Josh went for interview and left me alone at home so I ambik lah kesempatan to sleep….

Woke up at 7.30pm (heheh….), Josh’s mom took us and Charity (Josh’s sister) to Menjalara for dinner.


We ate Yong Tow Foo (Tau Fu, Lady Fingers, Binjals, Sui Gao), Ginger Chicken Wine, Hakka Pork, vegetable and my all time favourite Chu Kiok Cho (cuka kaki babi)…

And THAT IS ALOT FOR 4 PEOPLE! And again, i only ate 1/4 bowl of my rice and sapu-ed the dishes…

And I enjoyed the food. Yummy! hehehe….

And the next day (urm….Tuesday), I did some shopping! So CincauHangus picked Josh and I up to Ikano because he was too hungry and need to makan. So Josh and si Cincau went to makan while i go jalan-jalan shopping…

Oh, finally I bought myself a jeans. My arse so big, skinny jeans cutting looks like a straight cutting on me. Ain’t tight from my lower thigh below. Whatever lah…still got jeans then i happy d…

And and and I made myself a chop. Fuh, writes “Registered Nurse” below my name. Aiyak, forget take picture. Later lah i syiok sendiri with it then i post it up.

After I have done my shopping then we went over to Starbucks to kill time. Waiting for The Ugly Truth movie screening. My first movie screening. =D The movie is very funny, but not suitable for those below 18, even after cutting alot of scenes. Not much of sexual scenes but the words used la….very funny and not suitable for kids lahh.


at Starbucks

Ok, i’m hungry now……dad bought me lunch an hour ago and its still waiting for me to swallow it.

I’m Still Alive

Oh hie everyone. Sorry for abandon-ing my blog for weeks. I think many people also never see my blog liao also. Anyway, I’m still alive and healthy and feelings i tak berapa happy sangat la.

Currently I’m staying in Aljunied, along Upper Aljunied road. Everyday I travel to Orchard for work from 8am-4pm. So if any of you happen to be in Orchard road after 4pm from Monday-Saturday, please find me *desperate look*.

So for your info, I am working in the Operating Theater. Not functioning as a Scrub Nurse or Circulating Nurse yet. Just an observer and learning through observing. So I have seen all kinds of General Surgeries and Obstretic and Gynae surgeries, from delivering of baby through Caeserean Section, to removing the uterus, ovaries and cervix (Total Hysterectomy and Bilateral Salpingo-Oophorectomy) to opening the abdomen, digging through the intestines looking for the intestine to cut off, putting some hard metal scope in your urethra, to circumcision, and many more….I use to get disgusted, now I feel excited. ^^

Anyway, honestly speaking, I have not done any shopping yet. I feel very tempted to shop, but if I shop I no need to eat d. So I never go out until last week when Josh came down. =)

Ok, go back to my shopping story.
1. I took him to Bugis, I saw a pretty skirt, only SGD10. But I don’t dare to buy.
2. I took him to Orchard. So many shops having sales. I don’t dare to buy also.
3. I took him to VivoCity. Went to Forever 21. Saw most pretty pretty tops, skirts, dresses are like SGD33. It’s like seeing RM33 from the salary i’m going to earn. But I haven get that salary yet ma….So I don’t dare to buy

To cut the whole story short, I didn’t buy anything lah after walking in Singapore from 10am-6pm.

Surprisingly again……no pictures to put on blog at the moment…=( I promise I will take pictures this weekend if I got go out.

Before I forget, I attended Heart of God Church last weekend. Went there alone and nobody knew I was new. Until I sengaja show my lost look.
And of course I go up to the usher and say, Sorry it’s my first time here….I’m lost..”
And the usher got so panic! Hahahaha!

Then they bring me to one person, and to another person and to another one and another one (they introduced themselves…and sorry, i forgot all their names….) and finally a guy name Daniel came and brought me to a seat with his CG members. And everytime I meet someone there, they will definitely ask me, “How did you know about HoGC?” And haha, I give the exact same answer to everybody who asked me, I think I answered more than 10 times. Lol!

But it is a great church. Great worship, great message, great people. =)

I’m quite sad cause I miss home, I miss mom and dad and my siblings, I miss my puppy, I miss him….I just miss the comfort I use to have back home in Malaysia. At the moment, I’m living in a small tiny room for 2 and sharing toilet with more than 100 people from China, Myanmar and other countries. I can’t pang sai here, I have to go to hospital to pang sai. I feel quite the lonely here. how?

Alright, time to sleep.

p/s I’m hungry….=(